I'm so sorry you have so much going on right now and things are sad for you. I know I've asked this before.... But, have you met this girl in person?

Also, since you know she has kids and she says she wants a polyamorous situation, it would help if you think more about how you didn't want that type of situation. That you wanted a one on one dating thing. And also, with her having kids already.... it can be kind of difficult to keep this situation going.

If you can focus more on the bad parts of this, it helps to move through it. The problem with putting all of our happiness into just one person is that then they pull this stuff that she's doing to you now. Or, she just isn't around. That's why it's not good to count on one person for all of our happiness. Oh I used to do that, too, that's why I know....

I think what would help is to focus on other parts of your life. How are things with getting that medication (your other post)? How is your Dad doing now?

I can completely understand what you are feeling. And at 21 years old, you think this is The Girl for you. So this all sucks now, and it makes sense that you would feel bad and sad. But you will feel better. It just doesn't seem like it right now, but keeping busy, and helping yourself and your family will help you to feel happier.

That's why I was wondering if you were able to get that prescription written yet (you talked about in another post)? And maybe just spend more time right now helping your Dad. Talking to your siblings. Focusing on your life right now.

I promise you that the pain will get less and less. Staying busy will really help a lot!

Keep writing it out. You are going to be okay. I had a heartbreak around your age and we were engaged, living together, and together for 5 whole years. I never thought I would get over it. But, a few months later, I had moved on, was with a better guy for me, and was really happy. You will feel more happy again soon, too.

Unfortunately, you love/like her more than she likes you. That gives her all the power in the relationship which triggers your need to control and your impatience. The only way to be happy is to go into radical acceptance of who she is and how she is. You want her to be different and that is the biggest problem here. You feel closer to her but she isn't interested in building that with you. She flat out tells you this but you are not listening. You are obsessed and she is detached. Go into radical acceptance of this fact and let go, let it be what it truly is. I feel sad and sorry about this. I think it would hurt me a lot to chase a man who didn't want me and saw me as friend material.

I am going to suggest about the same things Girl suggested. Find some activities to do in person. My relative goes to a card shop and plays those modern cards. He does it every Saturday night and has made friends this way. Or go to the gym and take some exercise classes. Or the public library has book clubs, there are meet up groups, etc.

You really want to be with someone that has multiple relationships? Because I believe you posted you don’t like this part and being your age I never take on anyone with kids. That’s a big responsibility. But it sounds like she just wants to be friends and doesn’t feel as strongly for you as you do her.