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im keeping emotions in control but very scared gonna loose it. was ten minutes from her house for 3 days and didnt go cause it hurts badly. yes i miss her but i got so crazy its embarrassing. once i knew it wasnt going where i so truly wanted it to i started getting so emotional instead of just stepping back or walking back then. i struggled and struggled with trying to make it something i thought it was. like at the beginning when its always so damn good then it just gets blah when they put up their walls and dont play nice. guess woke up on wrong scared side of the bed. financially i am a mess but could always be so much worse
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ya know the really neat thing w this post is that u wote the pos or the solutions to any neg u wrote about or any problems, this is insightful for u as well and shows that u arent just looking at the neg but the pos ore the ways things could be handled in a diff manner,,,, something i didnt see u displaying back in the very beginning,,, please try to see this and give yourself some more credit,,, we all make mistakes and it takes time to grow and to heal,,,, \"was 10 min from her house for 3 days and didnt go cause it hurts badly...\" would it have made a diff had you went there or by there? would it have been a healing thing for u or would it have put a kink in the healing process? how does it feel and did it feel then for those 3 days not to have went by there? sending a hug,,, KD