Zemphyra

I don't  know why but I always thought Monty's colour was purple. Even though I'd always buy him blue collars, probably cause there were never any nice purple ones. I'm already talking about him...

It's been 17 days since I last saw Monty. I thought it would get easier, but every day it's like a new knife is thrust into my chest. I have the most  horrible thoughts, and the most horrible...

I'm really trying to keep busy. Trying to get out of the house or else I'll end up going insane. Or that's what it feels like anyway. I guess what I'm really scared of is the more time I spend alone...

I feel like my life just gets worse and worse. I try to fix it, really I do. But something bad always happens. I've had a bad year. Lost my car in January in the floods, lost my job in April, my dog,...

I wrote this untitled poem while I was waiting in the emergency room to clear my head after having a tetanus shot from using unclean implements for self-harm purposes and waiting to talk to a mental...

So tomorrow I’ll have a new dog and that means new goals. I want to start walking every morning. I’ll have to search around and see if I can find my Pokemon pedometer. Also I’ll get some...

How does one be assertive when the other person is drunk? The answer is one cannot be assertive when the other person is drunk because said person cannot process assertiveness when drunk.Anyway...

A non-eventual day to be sure. I’m really sick of our ISP. My internet is forever dropping out, or else it puts on that little yellow warning sign with the ! to let me know that I have no internet,...

Well tonight has been a whirlwind of emotions. Some good, some bad. Mostly good though J So today was my first appointment with the group therapists who I’m going to be working on for as long as I...

Ugh stupid internet. At least It’s letting me be on my instant messengers without too much trouble. So I guess I have a lot to update. Not sure really where to begin.Well… I don’t have a door...

I was going to write everything that happened but I'm finding it too much to write and for some odd reason I'm extremely tired. Two nights ago mum kicked me out because of some issues, one of them...

My mum's kicked me out. I have 3 cats and we're living in a car. I don't have long till the battery on my computer dies... Thank God for wifi right? I'm crashing so low right now. I relinquished my...

I hide behind a smile so no one will seeA little lost girl, and that girl is meThe torment inside is now mere scarsFake memories explained to those who askBut what I felt then can never fadeNo time...

This disease makes it impossible to have friends... I'm too touchy, too insecure, too sensitive to everything around me. Wrote some verses to a song and this is what I came up with: Brought into...

I have made an awesome new friend and I am very grateful.