Zemphyra

It’s hard to be alone. To live your life on the sidelines while everyone around you is moving onto happier things. Getting married, having children, creating a family. I’m 28 years old and what...

I've never been good at keeping a diary. For one I always look back what I've written and felt ashamed or embarrassed that things could be so bad. The thoughts that sometimes go through my head are...

This entry is probably going to be a bit of a downer so I apologise in advance, but I am trying to keep an entry every day so here goes. I've always had a huge self esteem problem. I don't really...

So it's been a week since I've traded in the 'ole Lovan and switched to Avanza. I've been on Avanza before, but I don't remember whether it worked well or not. It was like 7 or 8 years ago and I was...

Laying here listening to Eminem's Mockingbird. So much has happened but I'm pushing myself to get better. Trying to date:  I joined a Christian online dating site. No replies yet but maybe they're...

I feel so empty... They say the hardest day is the first. It is and it isn't. The first day everything seems like a nightmare. When it starts to sink in, damn it hurts. Hot pokers to the chest,...

I feel so empty... So angry... Angry at myself, angry at God, angry at the people who owned the stupid dogs who mauled my dog, Odie. Odie... My best friend. Odie... who I'll never see ever again....

So, I guess it's update time. I'm at an internet cafe, which is cool because well, I'm not sure why it is, but it is. Nice environment, I guess. My "new" car is at the mechanic getting a general...

I’m really envious of those people who don’t have the responsibility of being a cat owner. I’m moving out of home in a few weeks and I’ve had to make the hardest decision to leave Salem...

I like the way 3 diazepam make me feel. I'm only supposed to take 2 but 3 give me that nice fuzzy feeling. I know I have some sort of addiction to the tablets, but why shouldn't I be able to have a...

I've decided after much thought that I'm going to voluntarily be an inpatient of a psychiatric ward. I'm scared. Mostly because it means being away from my cats and dog for who knows. But I just...

I almost ended my life today. I mean I really tried. I wanted it to be over. I sit here now and I still want to. This pain is just too great.The only thing that stops me is what if I try and I still...

Date doesn't look like it'll happen. Completely being ignored now. Started cutting again. Left church. Not going back. Taking tablets to sleep where it doesn't hurt. Tired of hurting. Tired of...

How many of us can say"I did what I could today""I helped a man who couldn't walk""I helped a child open up and talk""I gave an old lady a lift while she waited in the pouring rain""I made a young...

Wow, this day has just been utterly amazing. I had the most terrible morning because I didn't get to sleep until like 1am cause mum has visitors and they were up and the noise just filters down to my...