Yesterday
I was going to write everything that happened but I'm finding it too much to write and for some odd reason I'm extremely tired.
Two nights ago mum kicked me out because of some issues, one of them being that my room looked worse than after the earthquake and the tsunami struck Fukishima. I had lied to mum about where I was in relation to the progress I'd made me with my room and I'd broken promises that I would clean it by two Sundays ago. I took my three cats, Blossom, Jacob and Percy and the very bleak future meant that I decided to live in my car. I was very scared, very distraught and I considered taking my life and even made a plan of how I could make it look like an accident in order for my mum to get the life insurance I have in my name. Obviously I didn't go through since I'm typing this.
The next day I begged mum if I went to the mental hospital as a patient would she look after my cats and she said yes, so I made preparations. Only they wouldn't take me. Instead they gave me some hope, some help (groups that will be contacting me in the next week), and here I am now. That's the short story of it.
I'm back home on the condition that I clean up my room and get more time and much more intense therapy and help than I was previously getting.
On a side note while my room was being tossed a lot of my things have been stolen and I'm currently in the process of getting them back. Some of the things stolen were very sentimental to me, and I am very angry that in my time of absolute darkness, I was kicked even further by having my personal space invaded, and worse, stolen from.
So far I have gotten some things back after the person's room was searched (500+ dvds, some make-up brushes, and other bits and pieces). My necklaces that my mum had given me have been ruined after the girl who stole them simply abandoned the thought of the things she had stolen, and my jewelry was put through the wash. I'll keep you all updated.
Two nights ago mum kicked me out because of some issues, one of them being that my room looked worse than after the earthquake and the tsunami struck Fukishima. I had lied to mum about where I was in relation to the progress I'd made me with my room and I'd broken promises that I would clean it by two Sundays ago. I took my three cats, Blossom, Jacob and Percy and the very bleak future meant that I decided to live in my car. I was very scared, very distraught and I considered taking my life and even made a plan of how I could make it look like an accident in order for my mum to get the life insurance I have in my name. Obviously I didn't go through since I'm typing this.
The next day I begged mum if I went to the mental hospital as a patient would she look after my cats and she said yes, so I made preparations. Only they wouldn't take me. Instead they gave me some hope, some help (groups that will be contacting me in the next week), and here I am now. That's the short story of it.
I'm back home on the condition that I clean up my room and get more time and much more intense therapy and help than I was previously getting.
On a side note while my room was being tossed a lot of my things have been stolen and I'm currently in the process of getting them back. Some of the things stolen were very sentimental to me, and I am very angry that in my time of absolute darkness, I was kicked even further by having my personal space invaded, and worse, stolen from.
So far I have gotten some things back after the person's room was searched (500+ dvds, some make-up brushes, and other bits and pieces). My necklaces that my mum had given me have been ruined after the girl who stole them simply abandoned the thought of the things she had stolen, and my jewelry was put through the wash. I'll keep you all updated.
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L, I\'ve been thru some of this myself and it really is emotionally painful. You are a very strong lady having been thru so much in the last week and being able to post about it at all (I think I would be in hiding with PC unplugged), but know you are being of encouragment to others here at DS who are facing same issues as you. You own 500 movies? Or are they music CDs and video games too?
Oh, and I can relate to being depressed with a messy room; the two kinda go hand-in-hand really :)
500 movies, yep. I picked a lot of them up at the local classifieds group on Facebook. People were practically giving them away and there was nothing wrong with them at all! Eventually I ended up tossing out the covers to be recycled and put them into cases because otherwise they just take up too much room. As for being unplugged, if I don\'t have you guys I only have myself and I do silly things in times of major stress when I\'m alone. You help me stay rational. Thank you for that...
Wow, you have me beat in movie department I think. I will only be certain when I unpack and do inventory which will take an eternity I am sure, LOL. Lastly, my room is needing a good cleaning too, BOO-yah :(