so hard

Some days are so hard and I feel so low and then there are times I am so mad that it makes me feel a little better, who knows why.  We have got to go pick out a headstone in the next couple of days and that is going to be hell but we have to do it.  I have learned however that by forcing myself to do things makes me feel better and I am able to take my mind off some of what has happened.  I know there are times I would rather just stay home and sit in my chair with my cat in my lap and just watch T.V. and feel sorry for myself.  But when I go out and do things it does make me feel better.