Feeling okey today

Feeling a little better this week although there are still those times when my thoughts of my son bring out the tears and heart break.  Had another group session on Thursday and it went well it is really surprised and helpful to know other people feel a lot the same way as we do under the same conditions.  It has been almost five months now and at times it still seems like it is a dream, I do miss him so much and am still so angry with him for doing what he did.  I know he was ver6y sick and had demons in his thoughts but it is still hard to believe that he would cause so much saddness  within his family and two is wife and two children.  I just hope the time will come when I can forgive him and not be angry at him.