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Hoping for a long time but I dought I can be strong much longer. I wouldn't be suprised if another suicide attempt happens soon.

I don't know why I'm here at this amazing University I DO NOT deserve to be. I am a horrible person, I can't see why God wants me to be his child. I'm trying but failing so miserably at everything. I...

There's a tension in these veinsThat can only mean one thing,I'm prepared to cut any day nowWhen given the chance.There's a nawing in my stomachRepeating that old lie,You are too fat to eatSo why...

I'm struggling to not harm myself.

I'm not worth all the love I recieve. :'( Really I'm not.

Today I had a nice but busy day with some of my family packing up a lot of my nana's things so my mom and I can move it out and get our stuff moved in. While we were looking at stuff in the basement...

For a while I have known intelectually that what I am going through is a spiritual battle but I had not fully known (and still don't because I am only human) what that ment. Tonight though I felt it,...

Why do I want to die? I look fine, sure my skin is bad but people always see me with a smile on. Why do I feel so bad inside? I have no right to, nothing horribly wrong has ever happened in my life...

Dear God,I need your strength, for I am not strong. I have failed you, I have failed my mothers love. I need help but I don't know where to turn but to you. Lord I need help. :'( I am weak but I act...

Food intake:                      10 000 calories/ dayprobably closer to 2 000 calories/ day Weight:                      300+ poundsmore like 158...

I have no voice,I have no right.For I am a daughter,The lowest of the low.My thoughts do not matter,My ideas do not count.You can hit me,No one would know.You can yell at me, beat me,No one would...

I'll NEVER be good enough. :'( I'll never deserve her respect or love...

Ed, you've taken my voice and I'm so scared.You've taken my will, my will to live at time.And I'm scared, so scared.So I'm trying to take back my life.

I feel like I've been run over by a car and run into a wall and I haven't even started to try and get better yet. :'( I don't know what to do?

40 inches41 inches11 inches19 inchesWAY TOO MANY INCHES! :'(