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I'm just barely holding on and things are only getting worse. But I will fight this and beat it.

I'm not eating, I know it's not good and I know it won't help with anything but I don't know what else to do. And when I do eat because I can't hide not eating I get mad at my self. Ugh, this doesn't...

It's been about a month since I've had to deal with suicidal thaughts, this was such a nice break. I actually had many times of feeling happy. And I am finally able to reach out in the hope of...

Has anyone else ever had a friend come to you needing help with an issue you also suffer with and had a flare up with your issue so you feel unable to help them?

No one deserves to feel or be treated this way, ever. So then why do I tell myself I deserve it. I know I don't and yet I repeat this phrase constantly. Why is it the logical paart of my brain knows...

I'm not doing too badly lately. Not bad at all except for wanting one thing. And the fact that I want it in the first place scares me. Why would anyone want it? :'(

The tears well up insideAs I cringe in fearYou are only a few inches tallerBut much biggerAnd I dought you knowKnow the fear you causeBut it hurtsIt hurts so muchI'd rather you get rid of the...

I never realized what damage bullying can do. Sure I knew it hurt at the moment but I did not know I would still feel the pain years later. And have destroyed my self esteem. I feel so worthless.

To lean or rely on others to get me through the really tough times?

Right now nursing is my moon and a fun college program is my stars. What's yours?And feel free to add anyother positive words as well.

Anger and disapointment are a trigger for self harm or disordered eating.

I can't give up, I promised I wouln't. I just can't but I want to soooo badly. I don't know what to do. But I won't I'l try really hard not to I promise. :'(

Had an appointment with the psychiatrist today that went a lot better than I expected. I still don't see a way of getting better but it is a start and a big step. 

Sick and tired of feeling this way. :( :p

What right do I have to feel this way? It's not like anything terrible has ever happened to me. So I guess I don't have any right to at all.