fluterify

Perhapes I should simply accept what childhood bullies tried to teach me, that I am worthless. Because clearly i do not matter at all or I would not struggle so. I hurt inside almost if not all the...

Emotionally I've been doing so well but for weeks now food has been on my mind all the time. And specifically how I don;t want to eat at all. Of how I like the feeling of starving.

I'm back in this place already. A place where I do not know if I want to live or die. A place of questioning of self hatred. I really don't thike this place very much.

I have been thinking a lot lately and was just wondering what is life worth for you?

That's all I can promise to keep living for. My pain continues to be unbareable.

I'm not sure even I myself am able to recognize how much pain I really am in right now. I'm only getting it in trickles in small amounts but soon enough the full issue will raise its ugly head I'm...

What's the point in continuing to fight?Why bother keep living?:'(

Terrified of myself :'(

Had about 35 hours of sleep in the past 11 days.Been going up and down A LOT.Sliding hard right now.:'(0 self esteem.

Who am I to say I deserve to live?

I'm doing ok, I've set a goal for myself that for the month of October I will not hurt myself in any way shape or form.We'll see how that goes.On a slightly less positive note a part of me is still...

Hoping for a long time but I dought I can be strong much longer. I wouldn't be suprised if another suicide attempt happens soon.

I don't know why I'm here at this amazing University I DO NOT deserve to be. I am a horrible person, I can't see why God wants me to be his child. I'm trying but failing so miserably at everything. I...

There's a tension in these veinsThat can only mean one thing,I'm prepared to cut any day nowWhen given the chance.There's a nawing in my stomachRepeating that old lie,You are too fat to eatSo why...

I'm struggling to not harm myself.