Mistakes of a life time

There's a tension in these veins
That can only mean one thing,
I'm prepared to cut any day now
When given the chance.
There's a nawing in my stomach
Repeating that old lie,
You are too fat to eat
So why even try?
There's an exaustion in this body
Way beyond repair,
No way to undo mistakes made
But waiting for the moment to fastforward time.