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:'( How long will I last this time?

I just don't know. I have no idea any more, do I really care for life any more? I have no more idea. I might want to...

If I could just go to sleep for at least 24 hours I would I don't really feel like living, not necessarily dieing but not living either. I've stopped eating 2 meals a day so now I normally get 2...

I feel like a shell. On the inside this war of the worlds (life or death) is going on but I in no way have any part in the out come. In a way I am glad because I feel so weak right mow even a tiny...

I just want to give up. I've had enough, I can't handel this anymore. I don't know what to do?

I'm not ready you can't be back yet. I'm still too weak.

I'm stronger than I thought. Sure, I've done some REALLY stupid things but I survived and have come out for the better.

I'm sorry I can't see through this haze. How it makes me want to slice my wrists my throat. How this terror makes me want to kill my self, jst end the pain. I really don't know what else to do. :'(...

I love you but I can't like you. You ignore me, practically neglect me. I see you once a year and you tell me we should keep in beter contact. So I try and you still ignore me and I give up then...

I can't believe I actually started to OD but nothing has changed. :'( I still want to kill myself. I'm still terrified and confused. :(

Today, a hero was made.

I hate this, being suicidal all the time and having people not know, not believe or just write me off. Do they really want me to prove it to them? :'(

I don't know what i'm doing any more. I don't know what to do I know what I want is wrong but the pain I'm in. This pain is so overwhelming. :'( :(

These marks I makePace my lifeThe years I hadAnd those to comeNow are all doneI'm here to sayGood- byeI am so sorryFor all the pain I've put you throughBut Nothing lasts foreverSo, my final prayerIs...

How can the sun have finaly risen yet I still desperatly want to kill my self. :'(