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What's the point in living?

In shock from the very sudden death of my beloved Nana but I have to and am being the backbone of my family at this time.

How do you tell a loved one they are being very emotionally abusive when they have just blamed you of the same thing? :'(

                 The way I feel                 I don't have to                 Not alone at                  least I haveFriends and...

If I can be treated like that why can't I treat myself the same way? :'(

I'm not eating, drinking, sleeping, caring or interested. But it does not matter does it? I want help but I'm too scared to ask.

Why do I make emotional pain physical? It's not like almost knocking yourself out is any easier to deal with than the emotional pain. Each time I fall into the past I end up hurting myself more.

Beneath this smileAre much darker thoughtsThings very few will evey seeBut if I tell youPlease don't judge meFor I hide behind my smileSo I don't hurt youBut I warn youThe more you knowThe less I'll...

I'm dealing with flashbacks of being bullied for 10 years. This is causing a great deal of pain and issues to take a strong hold. 

Past hurtsCome back to haunt usThe more we fightThe stronger they getMore we try to forgetThe more invacive they becomeBut through all this I forgivePast deeds undone.

You fill me upSo I can pour out to othersYou strengthen meSo I can step forwardAnd move onI shall give a real smile to othersThank- you!

I'm not eating again. The thought of food makes me feel sick. I don't like this but I don't know what else to do. :'(

I want to be happy. I want to move on to keep going. I don't know if I can but I want to be able to. I will be happy some day.

I'm not doing so well. I want to be ok but i'm not. I have written a note and set a date. I'm sorry.

I don't want to feel this way, in this pain. I feel out of control so I am trying to control my eating, this has been hard this weekend so I feel the urge to do another unhealthy habit that I just...