Kenna21

  It's late and all I can seem to think about is what I've felt in the past four years. Pain. And though feeling pain is such a burden towards everything I do, I know in my heart just how much...

 As 2009 is coming to an end and a new year is about to begin, I think back to the year I've had. Though I should be so thankful for all that has come my way, the one thing that has made a permanent...

   I hardly sleep. I hardly slept. There's a burden, there's a heavy weight on my shoulders I can never shake enough to make me weightless. I toss, I turn. And eventually force myself to get out...

   So I just got home from my night class. I'll have to admit, I put a good effort and a good amount of work during class and I'm pretty happy with my progress. Now that I'm home, I'm exhausted...

   I would have to say I have the greatest Mom any daughter can ask for. I'm truly blessed. The other night, my parents were spending the night at my house so we could take my Dad to his...

  I'm young. And being young, it's hard enough to find and figure out who you are and what you want your life to be. I've realized this year that everything good that comes my way, I seem to want...

   As much as I would love to be sleeping peacefully right now, once again I'm not. I'm wide awake without a single blink of the eye. I found a red bump where my shingles once was and where my PHN...

There are three definitions of the word "healing", none of which I can seem to relate to. Healing 1. curing or curative; prescribed or helping to heal. 2. growing sound; getting well;...

I've been having the worst nightmares this week. And I was hoping to wake up this morning refreshed, but instead woke up with a half panic attack. I wake up exhausted even though I've slept for...

  I've been soo exhausted lately. It seems like whenever the weather changes, I hurt so much more. And not just the PHN but my legs, my jaw, and the previous broken bones all hurt. I feel tired all...

   I'm in a rough patch again. I'm hurting so badly tonight and the last thing I want to be doing is crying. I hate crying, I always have. It seems so pointless, maybe because I never feel better...

  I'm officially twenty-one years old. My birthday was bitter-sweet. On the four hour drive to Las Vegas with my amazing parents and boyfriend, I kept thinking about how lucky I was to have them....

 Nights like these I feel like a horrible person. But as I'm sitting here in a nutrition class and people are crying about their strawberry allergies, I can't help but be mad that I'm in a horrible...

 I doubt anyone will be reading these journal entries other than myself. Either way, I think writing out my pain is one of the only ways I can deal with it. After three years, actually I've lost...

It's a Friday night. I'm at home. Some days I feel so strong. Some days I feel like I can handle everything myself, I can handle whatever comes my way. Other days, my weakness gets the best of me....