Kenna21

I'm hurting pretty badly tonight. I hold it in, I hold my breath, I count to 100, I lose, I win, I escape, I fear, I think about everything else that exists besides my pain. I can't sleep. As soon as...

I was hoping to wake up refreshed today from a long week of design projects and 25 hours of school in 3 days. But I woke up every hour last night. Not sure why. I've decided I'm going to be a...

I woke up this morning and the first thought I had was how much I hurt. It terrifies me to wake up that way everyday and it takes a toll on me for the rest of the day.it makes me sad to think about...

  Some days I feel like I can conquer the world, but most days I feel like my ability to breathe easily is ripped away without notice. It hurts to breathe, it hurts to be hurting. As hard as I try...

  It's late and all I can seem to think about is what I've felt in the past four years. Pain. And though feeling pain is such a burden towards everything I do, I know in my heart just how much...

 As 2009 is coming to an end and a new year is about to begin, I think back to the year I've had. Though I should be so thankful for all that has come my way, the one thing that has made a permanent...

   I hardly sleep. I hardly slept. There's a burden, there's a heavy weight on my shoulders I can never shake enough to make me weightless. I toss, I turn. And eventually force myself to get out...

   So I just got home from my night class. I'll have to admit, I put a good effort and a good amount of work during class and I'm pretty happy with my progress. Now that I'm home, I'm exhausted...

   I would have to say I have the greatest Mom any daughter can ask for. I'm truly blessed. The other night, my parents were spending the night at my house so we could take my Dad to his...

  I'm young. And being young, it's hard enough to find and figure out who you are and what you want your life to be. I've realized this year that everything good that comes my way, I seem to want...

   As much as I would love to be sleeping peacefully right now, once again I'm not. I'm wide awake without a single blink of the eye. I found a red bump where my shingles once was and where my PHN...

There are three definitions of the word "healing", none of which I can seem to relate to. Healing 1. curing or curative; prescribed or helping to heal. 2. growing sound; getting well;...

I've been having the worst nightmares this week. And I was hoping to wake up this morning refreshed, but instead woke up with a half panic attack. I wake up exhausted even though I've slept for...

  I've been soo exhausted lately. It seems like whenever the weather changes, I hurt so much more. And not just the PHN but my legs, my jaw, and the previous broken bones all hurt. I feel tired all...

   I'm in a rough patch again. I'm hurting so badly tonight and the last thing I want to be doing is crying. I hate crying, I always have. It seems so pointless, maybe because I never feel better...