Tired

Day 13 of 365 - Man Break
I'm exhausted today.  It just seems I'm always running around doing things for the kids and working.  I never seem to have any time to myself.  My son was giving me grief tonight and I lost my cool which I haven't done for a long time.  I just get so tired to doing it by myself sometimes.  Tonight I just wanted to veg and watch TV which I never do and I spent the whole night arguing with him.
I'm afraid I'm doing everything wrong and I'll taint him for life. 
These are the times when I get so angry at his father.  I want to punch him and kick him where it hurts.  How is it that he just screws off and leaves all this responsibility to me?  Not that I really want him in their lives.  He's a narcissitic asshole but I just want a break.  I want this huge weight lifted off my shoulders.  Just for a night.  No scratch that - maybe a week.  But still it isn't fair that he gets to go on with life as usual while I do all the work.  I just want to scream in his face! 
I feel so angry right now.  I feel angry so much.  ARRRRRRGGGGHHHH!