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- Everything seemed to go wrong today. Nightmares, oversleeping, overworking, extreme creative anxiety, general anxiety, lack of motivation for kickboxing, then getting shouted at on the way back. For being scared of my dad. You don't get a thick...
- I am an unfortunate perfectionist. Not a perfectionist, but a always-show-my-best-self-to-the-world-ist. That means sticking with what I know. If I try something new and fail, I feel intense shame and stress. Even if that failure isn't objectively...
- Whew, I haven’t been in the groups for a while, but I thought it was time to come out of my private journalling shell because I feel truly conflicted.My dad has narc tendencies, and for a lot of my life I have been resentful of him. Resentment...
- I did a full on clean of my work and rest spaces today. It was surprising how much of a difference it made!What people don’t realize is that your environment can affect you emotionally. For me, my environment didn’t feel like “my”...
- Hello all! I have something very specific to talk about today. Its about my relationship with work and productivity, from the perspective of a high school junior. I had an obsession with productivity for a few years, and it became something that...
- One of the college application essay prompts was “what is the biggest obstacle in your life and how did you overcome it?”I decided to write about anxiety. It seemed only appropriate. It is my biggest obstacle, the mother of almost every other...
- I went on my second trip to the therapist today. After all these years dealing with things alone and trying to self-heal, I think I've heard just about everything. But it's good to affirm what I already know, get a reminder, and be assured...
- First therapy session is tomorrow! I’m getting somewhat nervous thinking about it. So do you all have any advice or personal experiences to share regarding your first session or therapists in general?
- Has anyone experienced this? I find that when I take naps I tend to wake up dissociating and depressed and need some time to coax myself out of it before getting on with my day. This makes naps in general incredible unproductive. It's as if I...
- Today I made the nastiest looking swiss roll cake ever! It was a matcha cake with strawberry cream in the middle. The picture showed a soft, lovely spongy perfectly rolled circular cake. Mine came out fatter and flatter than a manta ray, burnt...
- Recently, I’ve been growing farther from my current friend group. I’m 17, and I’ve heard a bunch of times that I can’t expect people to be around forever, and that friends grow apart over the years, and it’s not all happy and forever...
- I've noticed this trend where whenever I come across someone who's both rude and assertive, I get an extremely irrational fear of them. It's probably been going on since I was pretty young, really. It usually has nothing to do with social...
- I'm a high school junior now, and the time for college admissions is fast, fast approaching. It's giving me major heebie jeebies, I just don't feel prepared for this next big step in life. So much will change, I'll finally be.. on my...
- Two days ago, I, uh, stopped dating my boyfriend. I don’t like to use the term “broke up” because it has negative connotations. Well, it was my first relationship, then my first end of a relationship. It lasted a little over a year. We...
- Even though I feel like absolute crap, at least I haven’t considered suicide at all. At least I want to keep living, even if it hurts. That’s good, right? At the same time though, it doesn’t feel worth it to be alive and be...