Anxiety Support Group
Anxiety is a physical condition marked by intense and persistent feelings of distress, fear, angst or dread. General anxiety caused by routine day-to-day stresses usually passes quickly and is experienced by almost everyone at one time or another. However, such feelings that linger over time and are very difficult to cope with, and which lack a clear cause, may indicate...

Recently, I’ve been growing farther from my current friend group. I’m 17, and I’ve heard a bunch of times that I can’t expect people to be around forever, and that friends grow apart over the years, and it’s not all happy and forever like the stories. This is the first I’ve experienced it though, and it’s really sobering and a mega downer. I was the type of child to not be able to hold a friend for more than a half a year, but my current friend group has been around for several years. To see them go is almost like seeing a part of myself disappear.
This is something I’m really unsure of how to deal with- I don’t feel like trying to reconcile, though my anxiety tells me to, i don’t want to expend a ton of energy into trying to remake relationships that aren’t as valuable to me as they once were. I know that my best option now is to make new friends, maybe even from new demographics, since like 90% of my friends now are from my racial demographic. This is not only morally troubling, but also bad in terms of personal developement, since I almost feel as if I’m in an echo chamber sometimes, with my own ideas being repeated back to me again and again. We are similar, so we can relate, but we are too similar.
So- back to making new friends - I’m 17 but still not good at socializing and being myself when it comes to people outside my close friends. I can do small talk, jokes, even interviews (I’m in journalism so I have to) but not getting close to poeple I don’t know. Part of me really, really wants to begin finding new people again and breathe new life into my life. I feel incredibly lonely these days since it seems like my support group literally collapsed under me. I know there’s no cure but to talk to people. And this time I want new people. I just have no freaking idea where to start. Bad anxiety in social situations.
I don’t ever approach people with the intention of making friends, it usually just happens naturally because we are together often. I’ve tried before, and it ends with me driving myself crazy! So this is something that I want to try that’s new to me, which I’ve never done successfully before.
God, and I’m still holding onto those ideals of friends forever, that warm feeling from stories, that laughter and mutual recognition. But I feel as if it’s gone. I may be being paranoid or jumping to conclusions. It’s possible that that’s part of the problem, since I’ve been closed off from friends recently on account of shame and self doubt. Gosh... maybe the best action here is to try to reconcile or talk things out first.
Well uh.. I just wanna hear your guy’s stories or experiences or advice. It helps me to not feel alone, which is why it helps to post about this stuff here.
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I haven't written in my diary on my computer since May because I thought that my computer was dying. I got away from writing but my computer is hanging in there. I think that I will start writing in it again. It's so therapeutic.
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Years ago, I won a mirrored armoire from my job. It's in my bedroom but I rarely stand in front of it. Yesterday, I had to have a dexascan done so I had to change into a gown. There was a full length mirror in the changing room. I'm aware that I gained 5 to 7 pounds over the last year from cheating on Keto but I didn't know what it looked like. It was a reality check.
I wish I had advice on how to jump this hurdle, but ? ? ? Instead I will be checking back to see if anybody has advice that might work for me, as well.
Some good places to make friends - at work (can you get a part time job now, or this summer?), volunteering (such as an animal shelter, etc), recreational sports (I played volleyball recreationally through the local parks and community colleges and made a TON of friends by doing that, softball is good too), join a gym, frequent your local coffee place (you may start to see some of the same people there and you can just say "Hi how are you today? What's that book you are reading?").
It takes some practice, but you will get there! :) Start slow by smiling and saying HI to a new person... at school, at the grocery store, someone passing by on the street, etc. To start getting your courage up :)
On the less practical side, friendships are tough. I was talking about this with a very wise, awesome friend of mine recently. Both of us agreed on a range of things that I'll pass along- that there's a difference between a friend and an acquaintance, that there are people that you talk to about the weather and what a tough test the one on Monday was and so on, and then there's a friend who knows a bunch of random things about you that you wouldn't really tell the person you talk to about the test with. And then, there's the "inner circle" -this is a prized position that certain friends earn by being there during tough times, enduring transitions in life, and navigating changes in each other's time, attention, focus, boundaries etc. those friends are deeply trusted with "where the bodies are buried" level of things. In my adult live, this has almost always been just 3 people (although not always the same 3)
Loosing an acquaintance tends not to bother me, oh, okay, we've moved out of whatever we had in common and gotten on with our lives, I may miss our quick "chats" but, it was never more than a quick chat, I can find new quick chat people. Friends, yeah, I miss them when transitions occur or one of us gets super busy and distracted but, they tend to turn up eventually and I hold in my mind that they aren't in my inner circle and maybe right now, they need theirs and I'm not a part of it and that's okay. For me, it's the "inner circle" people who loosing is gut-wrenching an it's happened a number of times. I lost one of them last year after 17 (yep, as long as you've been alive!) years of friendship. It was extremely hard at first but, with a year to think about it off and on, it's taught me a great deal. I knew that friendship was ending, but, I was making excuses for it/ her/ me, ignoring my gut, trying to alter myself/ my perspective/ the friendship (talk to her less, maybe then we'll have more to say to each other? Yeah, it didn't work but I was trying it was a very long friendship!) We were growing apart, I knew we were growing apart, I knew we had been growing apart for close to a decade. My boundaries were changing again, my focus was changing again, what I required from my friends was changing again- and this time, she- unfortunately, was not shifting to meet my needs and, in hindsight, I know I was stubbornly refusing to meet her's either as what she wanted from me as a friend was not what I was willing to offer her and vice versa- we'd arrived at our parting place, I was going one way, her another and what boundaries we had set and what our needs were didn't sink anymore. It's very sad but, sometimes it helps to look at it that way- to strip the ending of the friendship from all the particulars of it, the particulars of the unmet needs, whatever it was and see it as 'I needed on thing, they didn't meet it" "They needed something I wasn't willing to give" a lot of my friendships, when boiled down, that would be the jist of how they ended- we were going different ways and wanted different things, both of our boundaries shifted, or at least one of ours did, and it just wasn't working anymore.
I don't say this to make you fall into despair. It's happened to me enough to realize that when a friend falls away... I don't think it's ever happened for me without massive growing to follow. And new friends. People who align better with the new emotional place I am in. Sometimes it takes time, sometimes it comes with a period of intense loneliness and grief for the old friend.
For example, the awesome friend I was talking to about all of this a few weeks ago? Well, she made her way to inner circle status right after the 17 year friendship with my other friend ended by rising to the occasion of all the tough things that were going on for me at the time and that I just needed a strong but not overbearing supporter at the moment. She met me where I was at, the more a person grows, the harder these people are to find unfortunately, but the more you grow, the more awesome that inner circle becomes. I wouldn't trade my current 3 for anything- however, I to accept it happens sometimes, often during times of transition for one or both parties and sadly, I have to be aware of that. It doesn't always happen, some friendships navigate transition really well but, it's the most often time unfortunately, at least, in my experience.
I hope something in here was helpful for you. You're not alone by any means, and it IS difficult. I wish you the very best!
People come into our lives sometimes for a reason, sometimes for a season, sometimes for life.
School connection often change as events happen with leaving school. People often get together later on at school reunions. Sometimes, they reconnect there.
Choose what you want most of all in spending time with others. Do the simple things, and enjoy the easy moments of being in same place for a specific reason/purpose.
Best wishes!
You keep writing, and it will help you sort your thoughts.