Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
Everything seemed to go wrong today.
Nightmares, oversleeping, overworking, extreme creative anxiety, general anxiety, lack of motivation for kickboxing, then getting shouted at on the way back. For being scared of my dad.
You don't get a thick skin without getting hurt. So I won't numb myself, but grow a thick skin, and brush it off. They'll try to use me as a punching bag, just like I did in class today. Punching bags are made to not break. Punching bags are made to take every hit.
They will, of course, assume I'm spiting them by leaving the blast site. I just want to get away from the radiation.
The kickboxing instructor told me I did great. She's the only one I believe. It's almost like she's my only supporter, and I don't even know her...
I've not been eating much lately. There's just not much to eat at home, all we've had is eggs and naan. I've made sure to eat and drink at regular intervals, since I don't think I have much of an appetite as before.
There's hope out there, somewhere, even if "close" is the closest star.
when its the ears where the words get in.
Or the steel of the mind
If those words are unkind.
But yes there's hope spied on this eve
In your guiding star called 'I Believe'
Soren Kierkegaard wrote in his book: Anxiety is the dizziness of freedom, that of crippling possibility, of the boundlessness of one's existence... He who looks down the yawning abyss becomes dizzy.
My interpretation of this majestic work is you, me and like many here have eyes of a hawk when we peer deep into the horizon of the future and become overwhelmed instead of properly inspired. Artists are much more affected because we literally THINK different, seeing shapes, colors, and sound differently than others. Then the world tries to 'cure' us with the cold analytical mass mind void of artistic understanding.
The North star guided sailors to their destinations, through fear and the black waters of the unknown. But it was it's captain that saw that star and affixed his eye to it. Be the captain of your own ship and sail the seas of life in joy. Love