Weird

Okay so tonight's class was an online chat, but the professor was a no show so we were basically on our own for the tone and agenda. I feel like I "talked" too much and dominated the discussion because I'm afraid of empty space/time and no one else stepped up. I think it was a test from the professor (she can go back into the system and read the transcript of our chat). I'm feeling off-kilter now. I don't like putting myself out there, talking up all this space. I don't like sitting by either and I'm afriad my classmates will think I'm some pompous "know it all" trying to get attention. I feel wretched right now, and want validation that i did the right thing. I am anxious about others opinions of me and have no one in the program I trust to confide in. I feel alone and under the microscope. oh and i still haven't made my additions to the brit lit discussion though i've written some on my notepad which makes me feel better about it, but still like i'm working against time, and trying to catch up.