Erin- We are also thinking that my Dr might recommend and egg donor... I am a little apprehensive about it. My WTF appt is Sept 20. I am afraid to even think about a full cycle of IVF again for a few months. I want to try to take care of myself a bit and they are predicting a bad winter. I don't wanna be driving to my Dr and hour away in the smow and ice.

Keeping my fx'd for everyone!

Jewelszi - wow. My appt is also Sept 20, I'm taking a break for awhile, and I too am worried about the commute this winter. Are you also in new England? I'm in MA. Curious how you're spot goes. Good luck.

thanks for that advice Erin, i think i might do that.

hoping- glad to hear things went well today! welcome to the torturous TWW...hope the other side of the wait brings you amazing news!

Well I am thinking that was the beginning of the end...I had a HUGE bleed on Friday that also involved MAJOR clots and heavy bleeding gushing out of me like a faucet was turned on so I called the doctor frantic. They had me come in a couple hours later and there it was the little heartbeat still going strong. Problem is they couldn't find where the blood was coming from and I am still bleeding today. I am almost at the point of giving up. I decided to skip my suppository today Im sick of it just coming right back out again anyway. I guess whats meant to be will happen. I am SO over this spotting and now bleeding. Its been longer than a period! Im frustrated and irritated. I go back on Thursday and I feel like that is an eternity away. I just can't wait for this to be over one way or another at this point as terrible as that sounds. I'm feeling like there is OBVIOUSLY something wrong I'm not crazy here. I'm SO frustrated and annoyed at the situation. Has anyone ever heard of this before without it being a miscarriage?

Mrsryan- i hate this is happening to you!! Did they check your beta? I have read soooooo many woman have bled that way and now have healthy kiddos. Its amazing that baby is still hanging tough. Maybe its just a seperate egg that was released but not effecting your lil bud. Please dont give up. You have to believe that your body is doing what it needs... And is an amazing vessel. Its not meant for us to understand everything. Please dont give up please. Your bud needs your confidence. Big hugs and prayers

Mrs Ryan,
I'm praying for you!!! Don't give up. Prayers being sent your way!!!!

Mrsryan - I know this is so scary. I once had a normal full flow period and remained pregnant and I have a friend who had two normal periods before finding out she was 3 months along (baby turned out just fine.) There is still hope. The embryo literally screws itself into the lining like a bottle opener so it hangs on really tight. I'm praying for you!

Nae - nice to hear from you again. How are you? What are your plans?

mrsryan i have been praying for you today off and on since reading your post this morning. keep us updated. sorry you are going through this, i can only imagine the stress it is causing. ill keep praying- dont give up yet!!!

Thanks for the responses Nae, Hoping, Erin and JA. I had a MASSIVE blood explosion last night ALL NIGHT LONG and ended up back at the doctors office today only for them to tell me the babes hear beat is still there but that the bleeding in my uterus has gotten worse. ??!!! The area of blood is bigger and they don't know what to do yet other than tell me to stay off of my feet. How the hell am i supposed to do that when I have a 2 year old and NO help. My Hubby travels a lot for work. They can't tell me exactly what is going on other than the baby looks ok and my HCG levels were over 45,000 which is good. They took more blood today and told me to be on bed rest. That didn't help Ive been on bed rest ALL weekend. I'm SO frustrated!! Every time I pee (which is every 30 minutes) I have a toilet bowl full of blood. How is this possible?? UUUGGGGG so heart breaking and frustrating and irritating!!! I appreciate all of the advice i am trying to stay positive and hang in there. At lease the baby is holding on so the least I can do is keep the faith and hold on the best I can right?!

Mrsryan,

I'm a little slow on reading updates but just saw where you had/are having a stressful time. I agree with everyone else that has posted about keeping positive. Your little one is strong, safe and secure in your uterus. Trust in the doctors! If there is a good heartbeat, your numbers are still high then I would try my best not to worry. I know, easier said than done but try to have faith that everything is going to be okay. Big hugs your way :)

Mrsryan what torture! I didn't realize you had a little one to take care of too. Do have any fam /friends who can relieve you for awhile? I'm sorry you're going through this alone. I'm amazed at the strength of your baby. I pray that the bleeding stops soon!