Thanks Ladies. Congrats on your amazing numbers blfix and the twins u/s. I kinda wanted twins but will be blessed with a healthy singleton or twins...as long as I have a baby to hold in 9 months ;)

TTC - I thought ER was extremly painful too, was not expecting that. Sounds like great numbers. praying for you and one of those embies stick on Saturday. I will be praying for you.

MrsRyan - those are amazing numbers - CONGRATS
Welcome GatorGirl!!!
Praying for ya JA!!

Blfix and Karan-Congrats! What awesome news! You bring me hope.

TTCteacher-I hope you are feeling well and that ET goes well tomorrow.

MRsryan-what an excellent embie report!I'll be praying for you Sunday!

I hope everyone in their TWW is doing well and I pray for strength for all the ladies starting their meds!

As for me, the decision was made Tuesday to cancel this cycle. I had more small follicles appear daily and my larger follicles stopped growing. Then on Tuesday my estrogen took a nose dive. This is very similar to what happened last cycle. I think canceling was the correct decision but it is still painful. My RE was out of town this week so this decision was made with one of his partners. We are waiting until my RE returns next week to find out what the next step will be.

God Bless all of you ladies! I appreciate all of the support I have gotten from this group! You are all wonderful!

OOOHHH AW Roadfullo i am so sad to hear that : ( I'm sorry. I hope your RE has a perfectly good explanation for this and can fix it easily. GOD infertility is SO frustrating and upsetting. I'm sorry i really feel for you. I had a poor response the last round so they switched me to a different protocol which obviously did the trick!

TTCteacher I have fingers and toes crossed for you tomorrow and I hope we can travel the next 9 months together!

OH and Erin317 i only have 1 ovary and a reconstructed uterus so YES I was ECSTATIC when they told me my count this cycle!!! Its because i was on anew protocol which obviously my body liked. I was on the micro dose lupron instead of the antagonist which I believe was frying my eggs before they could be taken.

Hey ladies! This will be repetitive for those of you who read my journal... I haD my baseline this morning. I don't feel that great about it. Once again I had a follie bigger than the others, but the difference wasn't as big was last time. I think it measured around 15, while I think others were around 6 or 7? I was trying not to pay too close of attn bc I was Worried. Now I kinda wish I did. Again my RE said he would call and let me know, that if my hormone levels were ok then it wasn't a big deal. He said last time my estrogen was a little high. That kind or bothered me bc last time he had said the same thing bout afollie being big and it depending on my hormones, and he gave me the go ahead last time and didn't tell me my estrogen was high. So now I feel less confident I can believe what he is saying. But he did assure me if my levels were not good we wouldnT start yet bc he didn't want to cancel on me again. I just don't know what to think. It was such astressful day. I have had the HARDEST time with my pharmacy, and finally got the meds, an hour before we left for a weekend away, and after all the headaches, half my meds were missing!!!! Thankfully I had some left from the canceled cycle, that will hold me through the weekend. So I'm sitting in my hotel room right now with the meds in that little crap frige worried about them. I need to go give myself the meds soon. Ugh. Been dreading this. Last cycle it didn't get ny easier, it got worse as I went. Since I am away unti Monday afternoon I won't have another ultrasound until Wednesday morning. Please pray for my follies to grow right!!! Thanks girls! Oh, I have a couple questions to... What do your follies usually measure at for a baseline? What meds are you guys on? I am on 300 follistim and 75 menoour for now. Will be adding in ganirelix at some point. Oh, I forgot to mention, he said 6 follies on one side and 7 on the other! That was a lot better than last time so that was one thing I was happy with:) ok, I'm gonna go find the ice machine....ugh stupid IF!!!!!!!!!

Oh dear Road, I'm so sorry. I felt like having a canceled cycle was almost as horrible as a miscarriage. Just a death to the hope I was starting to feel. I'm just starting up again after 2 canceled cycles. We are going to try the antagonist protocol this time. I hope you're able to try again sooner than later.

Mrsryan - 1 ovary and a reconstructed uterus! You go girl! You sound like a survivor. We are trying the antagonist cycle this time. The lupron represses my egg production too much. I hope my eggs come out sunny side up though.

JA - this sound so frustrating! You've been through a lot of disappointment since this thread started. Do you know what protocol you're on?

Guys - I know some of you are paying for meds out of pocket. I have a bunch of estrodial (estrace) left over from my failed cycle (31 pills - I think). I'd be happy to mail it to anyone that wants it. We already have another container of the same stuff for my next cycle.

Also - I've seen several threads lately about jealousy and bad feelings when people announce their BFPs. My own feeling is that I love seeing your good news. It truly gives me hope and I want to celebrate each pregnancy. I don't give a rat's ass about my own jealousy. I need to see that this stuff works! Good luck everyone!

Hey Ladies,

Been on couch arrest since my ET this am. All 3 of my embries made it so now I am just waiting for a miracle. They scheduled my pregnancy test for next Friday, 8/24. OMG....CAN I WAIT THAT LONG??

Road - I am so sorry for your cancelled cycle. I have been through the pain and I know the hurt. Keep on going girl, you will get there :)

JA - my follies grew rather "weird" as well. I has one big guy, always 7-8 mm bigger than the other one so no stress there. As for med's, I started on375 units of Follitism for the first three days then I went on 300 units of Follitism for the next 7 days. On day 6 on my med cycle I added Menopur 2 vials and Centroide 1 viral for 5 days until I triggered. It was a lot but thankfully I got 6 eggs out of that concoction.

Erin good luck on starting your new protocol.

MrsRyan- good luck tomorrow on your ET. Sticky fairy dust to you..

Have a great weekend ladies..

Hello and happy Sunday ladies!

MrsRyan- praying for a successful transfer for u today and for lots of baby sticky dust!!

Karen--that is wonderful news and I hope ur numbers go through the roof!

Ttc-Praying this cycle is the ONE and ur tww flies by-cant wait to b in ur shoes and chilling on the couch! :-)

Blfix--omg Twins!!! Wow that is such good news! Thank u for sharing and giving us all hope that this roller coaster is worth it and works in big ways!!

Hang in there JA! Praying ur follies and hormones will b just where they need to be.

Ive had a good weekend. All my meds arrived and my calander. Ill begin meds on 24th- so ready! I decided to post stuff about IVF on FB yesterdsy (sick of staying silent) and was so overwhelemed with all the kind words/support that came in. Even found out that two friends just had baby girls through IVF. Glad I spoke out and I encourage others to do the same.
Much Love to all!

Hello ladies,

Lets see where to begin,

Karan- How you feeling? Any symptoms? Im so happy for you.

Bflix- how are those twins treating you?

Mrsryan- prayers are with you for ET today. Whoohoo

Ja- i hope your weekend was relaxing considering all thats on your mind I cant imagine that it was. Lets try to hold a positive outlook.. Its not over until the fat lady sings- im a fatty so i wont sing :0)

TTC- my dear cycle buddy- how are you feeling today? I bet you barely want to pee for fear of peeing one out ... Lol thats how i felt.

Erin- i agree with you- i actually had been thinking about that alot lately. I adore my IF women on here but I would hope that if i get a bfp that I would get genuwine support and excitement. We are comfortable sharing about our vagina but because we know the struggle some of us feel uncomfortable celebrating pregnancy. I say lets celebrate and hold on to belief that we too will get that BFP.

As for me- I am on day 5 of my tww and thankfully not feeling the urge to test. I just spend most of my time in my head saying what should I be feeling, and stuff like if i were pregnant wouldnt I have a symptom by now? I know logically probably not...not many would know they are 5 days pregnant. I fear a negative and absolutely crave a positive but more than anything I want this wait to be over. I test on the 21st and i cant decide.. Do PoAS or beta? I think after 2 ww of waiting I better POAs and deal with the results then do a beta. Whatcha think ladies?

Hello ladies,

Lets see where to begin,

Karan- How you feeling? Any symptoms? Im so happy for you.

Bflix- how are those twins treating you?

Mrsryan- prayers are with you for ET today. Whoohoo

Ja- i hope your weekend was relaxing considering all thats on your mind I cant imagine that it was. Lets try to hold a positive outlook.. Its not over until the fat lady sings- im a fatty so i wont sing :0)

TTC- my dear cycle buddy- how are you feeling today? I bet you barely want to pee for fear of peeing one out ... Lol thats how i felt.

Erin- i agree with you- i actually had been thinking about that alot lately. I adore my IF women on here but I would hope that if i get a bfp that I would get genuwine support and excitement. We are comfortable sharing about our vagina but because we know the struggle some of us feel uncomfortable celebrating pregnancy. I say lets celebrate and hold on to belief that we too will get that BFP.

As for me- I am on day 5 of my tww and thankfully not feeling the urge to test. I just spend most of my time in my head saying what should I be feeling, and stuff like if i were pregnant wouldnt I have a symptom by now? I know logically probably not...not many would know they are 5 days pregnant. I fear a negative and absolutely crave a positive but more than anything I want this wait to be over. I test on the 21st and i cant decide.. Do PoAS or beta? I think after 2 ww of waiting I better POAs and deal with the results then do a beta. Whatcha think ladies?

Hello ladies,

Lets see where to begin,

Karan- How you feeling? Any symptoms? Im so happy for you.

Bflix- how are those twins treating you?

Mrsryan- prayers are with you for ET today. Whoohoo

Ja- i hope your weekend was relaxing considering all thats on your mind I cant imagine that it was. Lets try to hold a positive outlook.. Its not over until the fat lady sings- im a fatty so i wont sing :0)

TTC- my dear cycle buddy- how are you feeling today? I bet you barely want to pee for fear of peeing one out ... Lol thats how i felt.

Erin- i agree with you- i actually had been thinking about that alot lately. I adore my IF women on here but I would hope that if i get a bfp that I would get genuwine support and excitement. We are comfortable sharing about our vagina but because we know the struggle some of us feel uncomfortable celebrating pregnancy. I say lets celebrate and hold on to belief that we too will get that BFP.

As for me- I am on day 5 of my tww and thankfully not feeling the urge to test. I just spend most of my time in my head saying what should I be feeling, and stuff like if i were pregnant wouldnt I have a symptom by now? I know logically probably not...not many would know they are 5 days pregnant. I fear a negative and absolutely crave a positive but more than anything I want this wait to be over. I test on the 21st and i cant decide.. Do PoAS or beta? I think after 2 ww of waiting I better POAs and deal with the results then do a beta. Whatcha think ladies?

Gator- im so happy you got support from you FBF- I couldnt do it because I just would hate to explain and to hear the well ill have a baby for you and omg is it that serious to spend that much just get a puppy.... Those ppl would make me lose it.

Im just glad you discovered others in the struggle

OMG ttcteacher! 3 embryos :D Triplets lol. Just be patient and try to keep yourself busy with whatever you possible can to get your mind off things. I had already convinced myself I had a negative especially once I started getting cramps I thought for sure AF was coming.

MrsRyan let us know how that ET is. Take it easy and make sure DH waits on you hand and foot ;)

Roadfullo I am so sorry about your cancel cycle honey. Let us know what your next step is. We are hear for you dear!

Naechicks do not start thinking about symptoms! I did not have anything until a couple days before my Beta and they resembled AF symptoms. If you really want to do a beta, don't do it until the morning of but remember that even if you get a BFN on the HPT does not mean anything. The beta will tell the story.

As for me, the twins are doing good. I've had some nausea, constantly hungry and tired alot but other than that it still feels unreal after all these years of trying. Maybe when I start getting large as a house it will sink in that I really am preggers.

OK ladies I'm unsure of how to feel right now so let the support BEGIN. I need some encouraging words right now. We went in for the transfer today and for the first time EVER we had several good Blasts to choose from. The two they kept out for us to transfer were both a 3AA which they claim is pretty darn good. They know my history and that i can not have multiples so they talked me into only transferring 1 blast and freezing the 7 others. EVERYONE was urging me to only do 1 since we can't have twins and I could never do selective reduction. I knew this day would be the hardest for me. It is. I sit here on bed rest wondering if i made the right decision to only do 1 after all of this hard work of making them. I can only find a few positive stories about a live birth from a single embryo transfer. This is frustrating and I am positive but kicking myself I think a little. Anyway that's where I am right now. This 2ww will be hell but I'm glad I made it here and we have 7 more little baby sickles right just in case?!

Naehicks- Thank you so much for the awesome whoo hoo and support it means a lot to get that from a perfect stranger when my own family and friends are like HUH??!! You had 3 a babies transferred?? So confused not even worth getting into it anymore. I will trudge through this 2ww with you though right?!! Don't test you won't see anything yet and there will be no symptoms ok : ) PLUS every pregnancy is different so just hang in there and resist that urge!

BLFIX- Yes my DH is taking our little man out to the park and ice cream to let me rest so he isn't jumping on me. I also have him doing laundry hee hee. I am SURE you are not as big as a house LOL!! Hang in there.

Gator girl thank you : ) your support is appreciated! It needs to be REALLY sticky baby dust to keep this one little one going. You are brave to post on Facebook and I admire that. I never admitted my first son was an IVF baby until the last few weeks he is 2 this month. I was embarrassed but now I feel better about the entire situation. I'm elated you have friends that have been there what I wouldn't give to have that!!

TTCteacher- I TOO have my test on the 24th!! I AM ALREADY reading WAY too much and trying to stay positive. THREE??!! HOLY COW you will definitely be a Mama!! I can feel it!!

Erin- Thank you it has been a LONG and rough road for me and i have been a survivor. I agree switching to different protocol will be great for you it FINALLY worked for us!! My heart goes out to you and how frustrating this if road can be. We are all here and we get it.

JA0811- man I read this and felt terrible for you almost like I was there with you. You said it though UUUGGG stupid IF I couldn't agree more!! I hope and pray that your follicles explode and you get big healthy ones for Wednesday. I don't remember what my baseline follicles were I want to say 7? I just know the end size. I took Lupron and HCG and Bravelle I was on the micro dose flair protocol since i wasn't doing well on the antagonist protocol.

Roadfullofhope- How are you doing lady??

Wow! Thank you ladies for all of the support. I think I am finally coming out of my pity party and starting to focus on the future. I'm starting to feel better physically so I'm sure that helps. I'm eager to talk to re this week to come up with a game plan.

JA- I hope you had an enjoyable weekend away. IF can can take so much joy away and fill us with worry. It's so good to get away.

Erin- Thank you for the encouragement and best wishes for your new protocol. I agree with you on the bfps. While I'm am sad it's not my bfp. I am so happy that someone in my shoes has achieved what they have always longed for. It fills me with hope and joy.

Ttcteacher- 3 embryos! Woot! Hears to your tww! May time fly!.... If that's possible.

Nae- I'm glad you are doing well during your tww. I was never brave enough to poas. I was always paranoid I would do it "wrong" and it wouldn't be accurate. I think it's just whatever you are most comfortable with. I know some are more comfortable finding out first in their own home in private.

Mrsryan- just remember- no matter which decision you made, you would be second guessing it now. That's what IF does to us, fills us with the would of, should of, could ofs. I'm praying for your bfp! And I hope you are able to find peace and rest during your tww!

Here's to another week!