ps I'm writing this on my home computer. It's a pc so I can't do any work on here. All my files are created in Mac programs. Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

Yes! BREATHE!!!!

oh noooooooo Sad panda is right. This should make you feel better. My friend spilled milk all over hers... and it was broken for a day, now its up and running again!!

NOW you can go run ahhaha. No more dying in the sweltering heat.

Hope you get productive today and manage to do some work .... :)
HUGS

Shhhhhhhhh! I don't feel like running! There is no way I am able to do work today. I'm taking it to the mac doctor tomorrow, we'll see then if it can be fixed. I can't afford a new laptop, they cost $4000 AUD. Balls.

So I'm watching dvds of modern family to distract me from the feeling of impending doom!!!!

Hugs!

Modern family is a good distraction!! You are 60 days pull free!! WOOOHOOOOOOOO!! What is the treat??

The treat is having hair! Honestly I don't believe in the reward system very much. Maybe if I hit 100 days I'll do something. Hope I don't sound like a downer but I don't restrict myself therefore I can't reward myself, does that make sense? Eg I don't restrict myself from yummy food, therefore can't use that as a reward, I don't restrict myself from an item of clothing I really love, so can't use that as a reward. Sooooo I just feel happy that I have hair and I look at it in the mirror!!

hahahaha yes i totally understand. I actually like treating myself and it has turned more into an excuse to get something I want or just saw in the store window (shhhh don't tell anyone!!)
Hair is the best reward in the end :) My friend saw me yesterday and she was like WOW. I'm happy. It made me happy . It's been a long journey fraught with danger, depression and sadness!! I'm so happy you are happy :)

HUGS

I'm happy too!
xoxoxo

I know what you mean. If I can afford it, I don't restrict myself & I always treat myself to dark chocolate.

The accomplishment is the reward too - and the building of this wonderful community.

Exactly, I feel like I have really achieved something. And if I can do this, I can do a lot of other things that are hard.

I love this place! I'm so happy that you're happy and I'm happy and you're happy that I'm happy and I'm happy that you're happy that I'm happy!

61 days pull free! I"m taking my baby off to the computer repair place soon. ARGH my stomach is in knots.

This is my positive affirmation:

I can do this
I keep my hands down
I have a long, full head of hair
I can do this
I am doing this

I do it with my eyes closed and I imagine myself with my hair out, with a full head of hair, with it wet, diving into a pool, puffing up under water.

It's very empowering!

Wow!
I have to learn this.
xoxoxo

Just close your eyes and imagine yourself with hair...

Love it! It made me happy and empowered too when I read what you wrote. It's so much different on paper than when you just say it to yourself. I've said similar things . Writing does make a HUGE difference.
How is your baby?.............too soon to tell?

HUGS

Hehe it does make a difference.

My baby..... Don't know yet. Thankfully the repair lady was able to access my files via another hard drive, so I was able to copy over some files that I hadn't backed up. She's going to work on it and see if she can save the hard drive. If not, I will have to get a new hard drive installed ($240.. ew) and then should be able to copy all my files over. But at least I probably won't have to buy a new computer... unless something goes horribly wrong!!!

Been playing with my hair lots tonight, I think it's cos I put hairspray in it. I have to come to realise that hairspray is the enemy. Putting frizz free serum in it when it's wet and then litting it dry in a bun, makes my hair dry slippery and soft, and I don't want to pull it.

hm.