Day 56.....

Had ANOTHER pulling dream on top of an awful night's sleep urgh. I really wasn't sure if I had pulled or not - but I have checked all over my bed and floor and can't find any hair that looks like my pulling hairs....a few hairs around bed and pillow - mostly I think cat though (because my hair is dark and lots of it short sometimes I am not sure if hairs are mine or the cats!!!!) and I don't think pulling in my sleep was a problem - I think its just a bad dream.

Oh god what if I'm deluding myself and pulling in my sleep?

Shoes made out of hair. That is what I dreamed of.
You are stronger than the urge to pull. You can do this!
Hurray, 56 days!
Yes!
Stay strong, hands down!

I used to think about that, calm down, you're probably not. When I get paranoid, I wear thin white gloves to bed. It eases my worries.

Mid you have the craziest dreams!!

I googled hair shoes and they exist but pony not hair human!

Day 57 today - bad nights sleep though - really itchy back (eczema - no visable flare but issues as its itching will make sure I take care of skin today) then hubbie up at 4am which completely woke me today (usually I just go back to sleep) had JUST got back to sleep by 6ish when I had to get up to tke hubbie to train st!! Now back home in bed but couldn't drop off - my neighbours daughter having another screaming tantrum about school (daily occurance) didn't help - I teach teenagers so am not sure but is it normal to have massive tantrums, sccreaming fits, swearing etc when you are 8 years old?

My cat is 5 years old today!! We have had him since he was the teeniest little kitten - we took him home and he hid behind the washing machine!! Funny to think he was once so wee. He is curled up so tightly - he is like a walnut whip, with his head tucked under his bottom - he is such a good friend to me :)

I want to reward myself for 60 days (3 days time!!) I haven't used a reward for ages - don't want to get unmotivated. Think I will buy myself a course of sunbed sessions - they help my eczema a lot.

I hacked off about 2 inches from the bottom of my hair yesterday sounds mad does't it? But the hair from below my ears down is really thick and was about halfway between my shoulders and elbows - piling it all on top of my head made it easy to hide the thin/bald bits on top and sides but hving it all on top of my head all day everyday was getting heavy and now its summer - hot! Hot head = itchy head= more urges. So its lighter now - a bit harder to hide those patches but oh well - soon they will grow.

xxxxXXXxxxx pull free dust to everyone

NAUGHTY NO!!!!! Sorry to preach but sunbeds are SO bad for you!! Cancer causing yeah...? Fake tan!

Now... my motherly rant over... YAY for almost 60 days!! I can't believe it!, you are being so strong, you are doing so great. Well I can believe it. Cos you are great!

Hehe yes I cut off big chunks of my hair every now and then to get rid of the split ends and nastiness. Your hair will grow, that's what it does! I"m jealous of your thick long hair, it seems once my hair reaches a certain point (6cm up from my elbows) it just stops growing. Boo... I wonder if it can grow longer than that...

xoxoxo

haha I know sunbeds are very very bad - but I am allergic to fake tan grrrr - and I have a cream dress to wear to a wedding, so just as a one off it won't kill me, especially as I haven't seen actual sun in like a month!

Am working loads this week again - tutoring for A levels (the exams u take to go to uni here) got an hour today, an hour tomo, 2 hours thurs and 3 hours fri - which should make me about £140 Nice and needed now and I not working properly. Thinking about doing some supply teaching soon (I can't atm as I still officially work for my last school - waiting for paperwork)

really want chocolate......!

Strong, stay strong! chocolate, oh, sounds so delicious!
Best wishes with your tutoring!
You go, be very careful, and look wonderful for the wedding!

Hm. I will say no more!

Glad that you're getting some work, I wish I got paid in pounds!! But in Australia.

Eat some chocolate! I just had some fruit and nut for breakfast, so nutritious. Haha. I'll have something proper soon.

well I bought some chocolate then didn't fancy it - whats that about? So I can have some today maybe.....

Another day when I am working. Am also waiting to hear the news about a very dear friend of mine who has gone into hospital to be induced - hopefully she will have her very longed for baby today and I can dance around!!

Sleep is becoming an issue again. Hmmmm.

still day 58 I think?

Oh that IS odd. I'm sure you'll feel like it another time!!

Ooh exciting about your friend's baby. None of my friends are having kids... yet. My close one's at least. The thought of having kids puts fear in my heart!!

Ack to sleep, phoebe wrote some good points on another page, about having a routine + exercise helping a tonne.

EEP almost 2 months!

Well I ate my Twirl bar today :) Must get exercisin more - am getting to be a biffer.

2 month anniversary is on saturday - i am planning a great day to - we are going to our village fayre - where we will drink pimms, listen to live music and eat bbq woohoo!! The village fayre/May fayre/summer fayre/spring fayre is a very british thing.....just hope its sunny!!!

I live twirls! And hehe pims is so English. Hope it's sunny for you too :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1xnfudWQqf0

hehehehe you crazy poms!

wow my friend had a baby girl by emergency c-section last night - little polly!!! Am over the moon, she has had 3 miscarriages including triplets :( so this is a very longed for baby!

Day 59 here - looking forward to day 60 tomo and my day out :)