rsusselj18

I joined this group back in 2009 (or was it 2010?).  My husband died on January 2009 - he slipped on an icy patch, struck his head on the ice/pavement, suffered a major subdural hematoma, and was...

I hate my life.  I hate what I have become.  I have become a hateful, spiteful, mean, nasty person. I am quick to anger, wholly frustrated, spewing venom against everyone. I have been cheated,...

I want to move on with my life.  But I am unable to.  I know many of my friends are tired of hearing me whining and complaining about my life.  But the truth is my life IS shit.  Ever since my...

I woke up smiling this morning.  First time since Barry died.  Endured a four hour long grilling deposition yesterday.  I was nervous in the beginning.  But, I relaxed a bit with time.  It is...

Leaving behind, burning bridges, starting over.  This used to be my signature.  I have lived so many lives, the child growing up under her loving parents care, in their home, with not a care in the...

 My late husband was an ass.  A schmuck par excellence.  I am destitute. No home. No money. No job. No children at home to occupy me. No companionship.   Nothing.   And the Rabbi's of my...

I hate my late husband. I really hate him. Perhaps I may have loved him in life but in death I hate him. He did not take care of me AT ALL. He did not leave a will. He screwed me out of the house. ...

This Friday I am scheduled to go to court.  My lawyers have told me to expect the following to happen:  the court will compel me to deposit the balance of the life insurance money into a court held...

 Ok, first off, I am completely off the meds.  I had slowly weaned myself off the Xanax and was fine. I had simply reverted to my "normal" sleep pattern of sleeping until about 3 am or so and then...

I was just served with papers. N, my late husbands EX wife is suing me for everything. She wants me to give all the money I got as life insurance when my husband died (a paltry amount, less than half...

LOL, I am actually in a good mood, despite all the craziness lately.  So, the latest: My SIL, who lives in LA, this is a GOOD SIL -- my brothers' wife -- has been in Silver Spring, MD with four of...

 Yesterday was the banquet in memory of my late husband. He had participated in a learning program from Yeshivat Pirchei Shoshanim. In 2006 he earned smicha (the title Rabbi) from their program and...

First an apology to all my DS friends. I have not paid much attention to you, nor read your journal entries, nor sent very many hugs or prayers or words or encouragement. I am so sorry -- I really...

 I am so blessed to have the friends I have. I spent a lovely Shabbat at my friend Joce and we went to Chavi W and her family for lunch, and visited Dan and Mir later in the afternoon. Sat nite Joce...

 I finally received my copies of all the case files from the personal injury lawyer. This lawyer has declined to take the case to sue for wrongful death of my husband.  She said she does not...