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HOme depot opens at 6 AM, in 15 min. I am going to pick up a new lock and change the lock on my house before I go to work. Crazy stuff.

It was suggested to me that I talk with my stepkids about our grief. That they would then understand what I am going through and know that we have a shared grief. HA! I have attempted many times to...

 So, my stepdaughter Z, has continued to push me. She wants to talk to my lawyers, both the estate lawyer and the personal injury lawyer. Both lawyers have told me they will not talk to her -- if...

1)     I come home to an empty house every night2)     The TV is my nightly companion3)     I have to deal with all the “heavy” chores myself4)     I have to pay all the bills on...

I think that says it all.

First, I want to state how happy I am to have found DailyStrength.com and the Widows and 'widowers support group. I love that it is an active group and the outpouring of love, support, insight,...

Today I am feeling kind of sad. I have that bad feeling in the pit of my stomach like something is wrong. I had that feeling for WEEKS and WEEKS after my honey died.  It went away after I started...

So...today I went out on a date -- sort of. This guy I connected with via a dating site, we met for "coffee". He actually had wanted to meet at this other place, an upscale kosher coffee cafe -- but...

My story in a nutshell: (NOTE: I wrote this in response to an email I received from another widow who also lost her husband suddenly and had reached out to me and shared her feelings with me.) I...

I hate my life.  I hate what I have become.  I have become a hateful, spiteful, mean, nasty person. I am quick to anger, wholly frustrated, spewing venom against everyone. I have been cheated,...

I want to move on with my life.  But I am unable to.  I know many of my friends are tired of hearing me whining and complaining about my life.  But the truth is my life IS shit.  Ever since my...

I woke up smiling this morning.  First time since Barry died.  Endured a four hour long grilling deposition yesterday.  I was nervous in the beginning.  But, I relaxed a bit with time.  It is...

Leaving behind, burning bridges, starting over.  This used to be my signature.  I have lived so many lives, the child growing up under her loving parents care, in their home, with not a care in the...

 My late husband was an ass.  A schmuck par excellence.  I am destitute. No home. No money. No job. No children at home to occupy me. No companionship.   Nothing.   And the Rabbi's of my...

I hate my late husband. I really hate him. Perhaps I may have loved him in life but in death I hate him. He did not take care of me AT ALL. He did not leave a will. He screwed me out of the house. ...