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 Today is Sunday. Normally my honey and I would have been upstate in the mountains, swimming, or lounging about in the sun or shade, in our anti gravity chairs we bought (they are GREAT), drinking...

Sheesh! I am so self centered. I just went through and read a number of my DS friends journal entries. Some of you are truly going through some horrendous times. And I keep spouting on about my own...

It is late Fri afternoon, Shabbas comes in. I am at my parents house in Monsey. I was originally supposed to stay home and go to friends for dinner tonight and tomorrow for lunch. But I was feeling...

So, on top of all the crap I am having to put up with from my in laws, my sister in law, my stepdaughters -- my job was terminated. I am out of work.  There are some who will say that G-d is...

HOme depot opens at 6 AM, in 15 min. I am going to pick up a new lock and change the lock on my house before I go to work. Crazy stuff.

It was suggested to me that I talk with my stepkids about our grief. That they would then understand what I am going through and know that we have a shared grief. HA! I have attempted many times to...

 So, my stepdaughter Z, has continued to push me. She wants to talk to my lawyers, both the estate lawyer and the personal injury lawyer. Both lawyers have told me they will not talk to her -- if...

1)     I come home to an empty house every night2)     The TV is my nightly companion3)     I have to deal with all the “heavy” chores myself4)     I have to pay all the bills on...

I think that says it all.

First, I want to state how happy I am to have found DailyStrength.com and the Widows and 'widowers support group. I love that it is an active group and the outpouring of love, support, insight,...

Today I am feeling kind of sad. I have that bad feeling in the pit of my stomach like something is wrong. I had that feeling for WEEKS and WEEKS after my honey died.  It went away after I started...

So...today I went out on a date -- sort of. This guy I connected with via a dating site, we met for "coffee". He actually had wanted to meet at this other place, an upscale kosher coffee cafe -- but...

My story in a nutshell: (NOTE: I wrote this in response to an email I received from another widow who also lost her husband suddenly and had reached out to me and shared her feelings with me.) I...