rsusselj18

I think that says it all.

First, I want to state how happy I am to have found DailyStrength.com and the Widows and 'widowers support group. I love that it is an active group and the outpouring of love, support, insight,...

Today I am feeling kind of sad. I have that bad feeling in the pit of my stomach like something is wrong. I had that feeling for WEEKS and WEEKS after my honey died.  It went away after I started...

So...today I went out on a date -- sort of. This guy I connected with via a dating site, we met for "coffee". He actually had wanted to meet at this other place, an upscale kosher coffee cafe -- but...

My story in a nutshell: (NOTE: I wrote this in response to an email I received from another widow who also lost her husband suddenly and had reached out to me and shared her feelings with me.) I...

I hate my life.  I hate what I have become.  I have become a hateful, spiteful, mean, nasty person. I am quick to anger, wholly frustrated, spewing venom against everyone. I have been cheated,...

I want to move on with my life.  But I am unable to.  I know many of my friends are tired of hearing me whining and complaining about my life.  But the truth is my life IS shit.  Ever since my...

I woke up smiling this morning.  First time since Barry died.  Endured a four hour long grilling deposition yesterday.  I was nervous in the beginning.  But, I relaxed a bit with time.  It is...

Leaving behind, burning bridges, starting over.  This used to be my signature.  I have lived so many lives, the child growing up under her loving parents care, in their home, with not a care in the...

 My late husband was an ass.  A schmuck par excellence.  I am destitute. No home. No money. No job. No children at home to occupy me. No companionship.   Nothing.   And the Rabbi's of my...

I hate my late husband. I really hate him. Perhaps I may have loved him in life but in death I hate him. He did not take care of me AT ALL. He did not leave a will. He screwed me out of the house. ...

This Friday I am scheduled to go to court.  My lawyers have told me to expect the following to happen:  the court will compel me to deposit the balance of the life insurance money into a court held...

 Ok, first off, I am completely off the meds.  I had slowly weaned myself off the Xanax and was fine. I had simply reverted to my "normal" sleep pattern of sleeping until about 3 am or so and then...

I was just served with papers. N, my late husbands EX wife is suing me for everything. She wants me to give all the money I got as life insurance when my husband died (a paltry amount, less than half...

LOL, I am actually in a good mood, despite all the craziness lately.  So, the latest: My SIL, who lives in LA, this is a GOOD SIL -- my brothers' wife -- has been in Silver Spring, MD with four of...