rsusselj18

I have succeeded in getting off the Xanax. Now I have to work on the Pristiq.

First of all, I would like to inform all my DS friends that I have not taken any Xanax in two weeks. I am fine without. I am still taking Pristiq, but not the Xanax. Since Xanax is supposedly quite...

 Since I have been unemployed, I have been home alone, all day, every day. I am trying to keep busy doing projects but I am going batty. I find myself going out, shopping, just to get out, to see...

 So, this is the spectacular event of last night: The girls, R and Z came over. I sat them down and let them talk. And this is what they told me:The house is not mine.The life insurance is not...

 Alone. Not lonely Just alone. Feeling bereft. I have lost my honey and I lost his whole family.  I met with the estate lawyer. That basically went well.  Then I met with Z and R. I heard what...

 It is 11:30 AM Sunday morning in the summer. It is beautiful out. Normally,  I would be upstate, in the mountains, at the bungalow colony. At about this time the Knish Man would come by selling...

 So, the personal injury firm I had hired to pursue a wrongful death suit has declined to take my case telling that they think we do not have a viable case. I called a good friend of mine, a...

 Today is Sunday. Normally my honey and I would have been upstate in the mountains, swimming, or lounging about in the sun or shade, in our anti gravity chairs we bought (they are GREAT), drinking...

Sheesh! I am so self centered. I just went through and read a number of my DS friends journal entries. Some of you are truly going through some horrendous times. And I keep spouting on about my own...

It is late Fri afternoon, Shabbas comes in. I am at my parents house in Monsey. I was originally supposed to stay home and go to friends for dinner tonight and tomorrow for lunch. But I was feeling...

So, on top of all the crap I am having to put up with from my in laws, my sister in law, my stepdaughters -- my job was terminated. I am out of work.  There are some who will say that G-d is...

HOme depot opens at 6 AM, in 15 min. I am going to pick up a new lock and change the lock on my house before I go to work. Crazy stuff.

It was suggested to me that I talk with my stepkids about our grief. That they would then understand what I am going through and know that we have a shared grief. HA! I have attempted many times to...

 So, my stepdaughter Z, has continued to push me. She wants to talk to my lawyers, both the estate lawyer and the personal injury lawyer. Both lawyers have told me they will not talk to her -- if...

1)     I come home to an empty house every night2)     The TV is my nightly companion3)     I have to deal with all the “heavy” chores myself4)     I have to pay all the bills on...