Yerushalim

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  Journal Comment

  Posted by: Yerushalim

  Posted: 09/02/2020

  Yerushalim commented on Yerushalim's journal I think we’re alone now

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  I think we’re alone now

  Posted by: Yerushalim

  Posted: 09/02/2020

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  It's been a while, a long while, I thought I lost this account but thankfully nothing is truly lost to the void. At least in terms of the Internet. I found myself the other day, or a semblance of what I was, and found that she was not who I thought I was. I was chubby, awkward, self-deprecating and harsh towards others and myself for so long that when I saw my reflection... I realized that's not who I am anymore. it may sound silly, perhaps even like some kind of poorly written movie plot,...

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  A dog with no name

  Posted by: Yerushalim

  Posted: 04/07/2018

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   I don't know what caused me to act so horrible. Why I say terrible things or why I constantly have to degrade myself for humor. I guess I'm hurt. Maybe a little crazy. Or just sleep-deprived. Whatever it may be - I find myself retreating deeper and deeper within myself. To no avail, there is nothing. I get flashbacks. To a time that seems like a nightmare or even a scene in a particularly violent movie, I can't distinguish which but it all shows me in the role of the victim and he in the...

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  Atlas Shrugged... And then walked away

  Posted by: Yerushalim

  Last Reply: robotnik 03/29/2018

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   What would be the first word that I can use to describe what I'm feeling? Nothing. It's a bit weird. No it is weird. I can't seem to be 'there' more or less i'm present but just not 'there' or anywhere for that matter. I know it's dangerous to say things on the internet, to friends, or even teachers but lately I haven't been feeling anything or wanting to do anything but sleep.  I'm sure people can relate to wanting to sleep all the time, especially High schoolers, but I find myself...

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  The wrong place and the wrong time

  Posted by: Yerushalim

  Last Reply: bridgie101 11/11/2017

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   I don't know what to make of this. It's been two years and still I'm having nightmares about him, I can't shake the feeling that I've lost something and more importantly I don't feel like myself.  I've almost died, after what happened, I became suicidal and I wanted everything to just end after what had happened. Basically I was sexually harrassed, forced to do things that I wish I could take back. I wish I could just be the dumb kid who never kissed a boy or even just be the girl who never...

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  Little to nothing

  Posted by: Yerushalim

  Posted: 09/25/2017

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   I got my first taste of 'lying skank' when I was in 8th grade. Of course, back then I was absolutely, head over heels, eyes like the moon in like with a boy who probably forgot about me the second he left the school the previous year.  Since we had no classes, no contact, no similar friends, and nothing to distinguish me from all the other middle school mamasitas I almost collapsed into a depression... That is until I was told he had a crush on me. I immediaetly perked up and began to tell...

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  The dark cloud above my school

  Posted by: Yerushalim

  Last Reply: jannytheresa 09/24/2017

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   A lot of kids at my school are angry, very angry, about our Homecoming being shut down and how our new Principal is handling the dark cloud above our school.  At my school we recently had a horrible tragedy, actually several, a girl in my grade died in a motorcycle accident and shortly after a friend of her's committed suicide. The whole school district was shaken and a majority of the people I hang out with knew the girl who passed away, I felt a sense of blankness or maybe I was numb to...

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  Hug

  Posted by: Yerushalim

  Posted: 09/21/2017

  Yerushalim sent a hug to SunCloudJD
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  we roll like Moses

  Posted by: Yerushalim

  Last Reply: sharaninmd 09/11/2017

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  My day seems to be cursed but at the same time I have a small sliver of luck on my side. Today I left my math/science binder in my science classroom and thankfully I finished my homework in time.  I came to my Math class late and instead of getting a lunch detention I pass my homework in and get a good grade. I've been saying "Praise the lord" in my head every time Lady Luck blesses me. Oh god I'm so thankful that I caught a break today! 

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  There's something about Mary (except it's a guy)

  Posted by: Yerushalim

  Posted: 06/21/2017

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   I recently had a conversation with my Auntie, she's worried.  I've had a crush on a boy for so long and back at the height of my crush I became emotionally invested and attached to this guy. The crush never really went away, and for the life of me I don't know why!  She said "I never thought that you would still be thinking about him at this point in your life," meaning, middle school crush? Seriously?  Part of me wants to let him know my feelings while the other just wants to know why...

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  Who is John Galt?

  Posted by: Yerushalim

  Last Reply: Jersey_of_Oz 05/21/2017

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   I've recently finished the worst book in the world and was forced to talk about it. That kinda sums up how I feel right now. With school drawing to a close I feel a repressed anger, like how some characters in books feel when they are confused or trapped. I'm angry. Really fucking angry. I don't have any reason why, I'm just tired of school, all these ignorant weak personalities, and the social issues that force us to assimilate to loving or being conscious of every little detail of...

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  Suffragette City

  Posted by: Yerushalim

  Last Reply: CynDme78 05/21/2017

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   I feel like I can never express myself, maybe it's a teen thing or just an awkward girl thing? I'm not sure, but I always come off as blunt and Frank but I just say what's on my mind and try to make it filtered. People think I'm emotionless and "Emo" because I don't have very many friends and I'm very shy.  Sometimes I just can't face my parents with my problems. The school I go to is worried about my health and wellbeing but my parents say I'm fine and that I just need to take my Meds (I...

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  The washed years

  Posted by: Yerushalim

  Last Reply: Robin-Mc 04/30/2017

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   in my life, I've dealt with bullies, surgery, loss, and family issues. Nothing too extreme. Just basic life things... Maybe  there is something wrong with my eyes. Nothing medicine can fix, something about my stare makes people uncomfortable. When I look at myself in the morning I see a typical, tired, and oily looking teenage girl. My eyes are squinting in the light of my bathroom and I struggle through the morning routine and force myself up the stairs to school.  The kids in my class...

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  Discussion Like

  Posted by: Yerushalim

  Posted: 04/30/2017

  Yerushalim liked the discussion Just when things were starting to look up.....

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  Love = evoL

  Posted by: Yerushalim

  Last Reply: Heidiclark 04/28/2017

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   oh my goodness.  I am going through a relapse into depression. My schizoaffective disorder is getting worse and everywhere I see is bleeding. I hear people screaming and crying. I cry at night for these guys. I cry at school because I don't have anyone I can talk to and I can't speak to anyone about my issues. I get stared down by this guy and his friends. They smile like they are about to burst into laughter while the guy avoids eye contact. It hurts me. I need some some feedback on this...