Yerushalim
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Mood:
Bad
- What would be the first word that I can use to describe what I'm feeling? Nothing. It's a bit weird. No it is weird. I can't seem to be 'there' more or less i'm present but just not 'there' or anywhere for that matter. I know it's dangerous to...
- I don't know what to make of this. It's been two years and still I'm having nightmares about him, I can't shake the feeling that I've lost something and more importantly I don't feel like myself. I've almost died, after what happened, I became...
- A lot of kids at my school are angry, very angry, about our Homecoming being shut down and how our new Principal is handling the dark cloud above our school. At my school we recently had a horrible tragedy, actually several, a girl in my grade...
- My day seems to be cursed but at the same time I have a small sliver of luck on my side. Today I left my math/science binder in my science classroom and thankfully I finished my homework in time. I came to my Math class late and instead of...
- I recently had a conversation with my Auntie, she's worried. I've had a crush on a boy for so long and back at the height of my crush I became emotionally invested and attached to this guy. The crush never really went away, and for the life of...
- I've recently finished the worst book in the world and was forced to talk about it. That kinda sums up how I feel right now. With school drawing to a close I feel a repressed anger, like how some characters in books feel when they are confused or...
- I feel like I can never express myself, maybe it's a teen thing or just an awkward girl thing? I'm not sure, but I always come off as blunt and Frank but I just say what's on my mind and try to make it filtered. People think I'm emotionless and...
- in my life, I've dealt with bullies, surgery, loss, and family issues. Nothing too extreme. Just basic life things... Maybe there is something wrong with my eyes. Nothing medicine can fix, something about my stare makes people uncomfortable....
- oh my goodness. I am going through a relapse into depression. My schizoaffective disorder is getting worse and everywhere I see is bleeding. I hear people screaming and crying. I cry at night for these guys. I cry at school because I don't...
- Prom. Great. The guy who I normally go to dances with of course says he's not going with me because they are "boring" and they are "not fun". The homecoming We went to was horrible and at the time I started throwing up so I could wear my...
- Great. Prom. I wanted to go with this boy who was friends with my sister. My go-to-last-minute-date didn't want to go to any dances with me anymore because he said they weren't fun (he just stood there at my homecoming and kept telling me to go...
- so a little update, lately my life has been pretty chill. Just got back from Spring break, Hawaii was awesome! I'm in a therapy group where everyone is super chill. But one thing always eats at me when I see this guy, I've known him since middle...
- Life in general seems to be going okay, with occasional spurts of sadness but I guess that's normal. Lately I seem to be losing it, I'm in therapy, I'm on Meds, and yet I'm losing who I am. I find myself getting down about the stupidest things like...
- I've been in and out of therapist offices for about 3 years, nothing ever seems permanent or willing to stick, much like my situation with friends. I'm not popular in my High school, I don't have a look that screams "TALK TO ME" I look like...
- Everyone tells me not to be such of a baby, but being a teenager and having all these fluxuating emotions can render your feelings to a state of numbness that sometimes feels eternal. A guy friend of mine and I are fighting a lot, usually over...