I've recently finished the worst book in the world and was forced to talk about it. That kinda sums up how I feel right now. 

With school drawing to a close I feel a repressed anger, like how some characters in books feel when they are confused or trapped. I'm angry. Really fucking angry. I don't have any reason why, I'm just tired of school, all these ignorant weak personalities, and the social issues that force us to assimilate to loving or being conscious of every little detail of gossip. 

Hey man, I'm a teenage girl, I love gossip. I like old music, books, movies, and I hate my school and the people who don't understand my plight. Some days I wish I could break out of my shell and kick ass like Wonder Woman but society dictates that I'm too chubby for her costume or that I'm not attractive enough. At school it hurts to see these poor girls get trapped in relationships and to see how their partner treats them, it's disgusting. 

I find it immature and foul to yell obcenties to teachers and to wear Timbs in the summer! I have so many pet peeves that I feel like a hollow shell or just an angry white girl who got a minty frappe with extra whip and toasted cinnamon when I wanted a minty frappe with extra whip and Sprinkles. (I've seen that happen at a Starbucks and it wasn't pretty :(  ) but something I wanted to talk about was how sometimes I find myself having a moment like I hear my voices or I forget the 100 point essay in English. It's like being caught biting my nails or being called out because you farted in class or were fast asleep and dreaming about Chris Pratt on a Unicorn. 

With schizoaffective I have a hard time in class with how I work, sometimes when I'm in my zone I'm easily irritated or even anxious. I get a flip flop of feelings or I'm in a sad mood. I'm going in to see my counselor soon and I want to know any ways to keep myself feeling normal. Ya know, so I don't end up like that girl who almost killed the barista over a Frappe.