darebearsworld
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- I have been having some issues lately. Ive been having constant pressure in my abdomen, like all my stomach muscles are tightening at once. My mom wants me to see a doctor, and even made an appointment that im not sure im going to go to. I have...
- Today was a great day. I felt so sick these last few days so I was happy when I woke up and could breathe out of my nose. I went into work and was helping run self-checkout when another cashier asked me to help him find an item for a customer. The...
- Today in counseling my counselor has mentioned the "chest of drawers" method of recovery. Where you open a drawer and put away a memory and only allow yourself to think about it at certain times. So many times I just want to scream at her. I cant...
- I went to bed around midnight. I was perfectly fine. I had just talked to a good friend, worked on my writing some, watched a funny TV show and laid down. Around 3 in the morning I wake up to find myself with my face laying in a pile of broken...
- Do you ever get into that feeling where you feel hopeless. Like, no matter how many times people tell you that you are loved and cared for, nothing matters. That person who broke you matters more. As many times that I look at my friends and family,...
- I work in customer service at a grocery store. I do multiple jobs including running a register multiple times a day. Yesterday was a steady day I guess. It started out great. I was asked to give a cashier a break and so I took over for her. I run a...
- New Years Eve I decided to go to a friends house and plays cards, eat pizza and wait for the ball to drop. I ended up staying still about 4 in the morning. 2017 was going to be my years. I promised myself I was going to change and become better....
- Some days are better than others. Or maybe just easier to hide. Its that feeling when an older man gets close to me. Or when someone asks for my phone number. That same familiar feeling of terror, of fear, of worthlessness. That his pleasure was...
- Some days I love life and have so much energy. I am able to get up and go to work and communicate with my customers, and smile. Some days I can come home and clean my house or finish the laundry thats been piling up for days now. Some days I can...
- I met with an old friend from elementary school a while back. It had been years since we had seen eachother or even talked. When I first met him at this coffee shop type place, I wore a jacket. Considering the last time I saw him my arms were clean...
- Went to the doctor on Wednesday, she had nothing good to say. Ive damaged so many nerves, muscles, and the tendons in my wrist are not fully functioning. All because the blade was more important than my health. She said over half of the skin on my...
- My daughter Cadence Rose was born on November 4th, 2011. She was stillborn due to very traumatic abuse I suffered at the hands of my owner. I was in human trafficking at the time. I was never taken for any appointments for ultrasounds or did I get...
- The last few days I've been researching places to get service dogs trained. I want a service dog, partially for my own person use with my PTSD and extreme anxiety, but also to take to places like children services and police stations for children or...
- I just crave it. My mind ponders the thought of suicide, but I know I wont do it. I am constantly running through my mind where all my razors are hidden and where I could do it to not be noticed by family and co-workers. My mind just keeps going and...
- I have been mostly sexually abused my whole life. I had started cutting myself and attempting suicide and along the way was placed in foster care and then in a residential treatment facilility. The facility is known as Foundations For Living. In FFL...