Rape Support Group
If you or someone you know has been the victim of rape, this is the place to find support and get advice. If you want, discuss your experience, share your feelings, and meet others going through a similar situation.
New Years Eve I decided to go to a friends house and plays cards, eat pizza and wait for the ball to drop. I ended up staying still about 4 in the morning. 2017 was going to be my years. I promised myself I was going to change and become better. Better in my job, saving money, and building relationships. But, as im driving my 30 minute car ride home. 30 minutes. I became depressed and was getting constant messages all night long from another friend who was having a party and wanted me to come. I decided to go, that maybe that would help brighten my mood some more. I am not a big drinker, but my friends were constantly shoving drinks my way. What could one hurt right? One turned into two and so on. Eventually my friend and I decided to lay down in her bed. She was beyond wasted and passed out fast. I moved from her bed to the couch in the living room so I wouldnt wake her. I heard the door open, though everyone had left, I decided to pretend to be asleep. It was her brothers friend. He came up to me and nudged my shoulder. I still pretended to be asleep hoping he would go away. He didnt. He continued to lift my shirt up and my pants. He continued to go on to rape me twice that night. I have been abused in the past. I have learned fighting back gets you in far worse situations than giving in. I was drunk, but not drunk enough to not be able to say no. After he left I made sure the coast was clear and quickly fixed my clothes and ran to my car and drove and cried, and cried some more. I figured if I just laid there and took it that it would be over faster and that maybe I could wake up and pretend that it was all a dream. Somehow convince myself that it wasnt real. Now, I think it might be possible that I am pregnant. So many thoughts are running through my head. Why didnt I stop it? If I am pregnant, what am I supposed to tell people? I dont know this guy and it wasnt something I wanted. What do I tell my parents? If only I had stopped it, maybe I wouldnt be in this situation. What if I had talked to someone? Will I be emotionally stable enough to have and raise a child? So many thoughts running through my head. All I wanted was a fresh start to this new year. When does it end?
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Middy is off for a bit so if anyone needs a CL please just give me a shoutSending a big hug...xo
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I was sexually assaulted as a kid. I find it hard to accept that another person's actions caused me so much harm. He made bad choices and now I am paying the price. Stupid PTSD!
you didn't do anything wrong... I say turn him in! Contact the police, you know who it was, and the you were scared, that's why you didn't move...
He's an a$$, and needs to know he messed with the wrong girl!!
Now for you...
I don't care if you're laying in the middle of the floor passed out, or completely sober... NOTHING gives a person the 'ok' to rape them.
Let's say your pregnant... now my personal beliefs have nothing to do with what I'm going to say....
I would recommend keeping the baby/child at least till birth.. here's why.
There are couples out there that would love to have a child, but due to some issues are unable to...
my wife and I were one of those.
We wouldn't had cared what the history of the child was, (s)he would be ours..
it took a long time to have our son, years actually...
I knew girls/women who didn't want their babies...we were crying literally everyday for just one to call ours..
There are millions out there who want that to...
Sorry, hard topic for me..
Please (if you're still reading this) be kind to yourself...
I'm sorry this is such a flighty message..
I do mean well, just not always comes across that way...
Please no matter the outcome, love yourself.. don't do the "what it's", pray He will hear you..
You are a wonderful caring person..
be kind to yourself!
You truely are not alone..
Hug yourself!
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You did NOT do anything wrong! I suggest you get into counseling as you're going to need to talk about it to work through it. Don't let yourself stay a victim but a victor!! It's going to be a bumpy ride but you can do this!
I hope you have friends/family support system because that makes it a bit easier too. I didn't since my 'mother' didn't believe me. Good luck! Sending big big hugs!