Eating Disorders Support Group
Eating disorders are marked by an obsessive need to control the intake and/or purging of food. This community is dedicated to those struggling on the road to recovery. Join to discuss your experience with others and find support. Get advice, ask questions, and meet others who are going through similar struggles.
I have been having some issues lately. Ive been having constant pressure in my abdomen, like all my stomach muscles are tightening at once. My mom wants me to see a doctor, and even made an appointment that im not sure im going to go to. I have other issues also. I always assumed it was my medication. Like, my heart will beat really fast for no reason. I can walk 10 feet and my heart will beat fast for a second. I take a medication that could affect my heartbeat. I am just so terrified that I will go to the doctor and she will tell me im fat. My biggest fear is that all my symptoms are cause im fat. Cause, if that happens then I know I will start purging and starving again. Ive gone so long without it, but I have gained so much weight since I stopped, and my biggest fear is what Im sure she will tell me. It will instantly set my emotions into overdrive. But, what if I am really sick. Gallbladder problems run in rhe family, thats what my mom thinks it is. Do I let my anxiety control my life, or do I just get checked out? Its so heartbreaking to think about. The fact that im willing to become dangerously ill, cause I dont want to get called overweight.
The thing with anxiety though is we convince ourselves that something bad will definitely happen if we make a certain move. But the truth is we have no idea what's really going to happen.
The doctor may not be concerned about your weight at all. But if s/he is just remember that your goal is to be healthy so make sure you ask questions about the best way to approach weight loss.
So basically just look at your concerns (or the things your anxiety is telling you) and ask yourself is this fear really worth my health?
I don't think it is, and I'm sure you agree. I can tell you care about yourself bc you don't want to fall into unhealthy habits again.
It will be okay. You can do this.