M3NTALLYLOST
Status: Crying tears of anything for the first time.
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The Surgery – well I cannot move the bar backwards past zero, but I need to. When I got my tattoo last week I helped the artist put the dressing on and tape it. The next few days I had forgotten...
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http://dailystrength.org/c/Rape/forum/5862923-10-words-less So powerful I wanted to keep my answer here. I’m reply #8. Wow… how integrity… Describe who you are in 10 words or less. At first...
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Surgery – no change.Weight – no change.Recovery – no change. Self-Injury – I did not show any one my arm at work. This is good for me. I want to play with it the more I see it. So I washed...
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Well I did it, I put myself out there, I made the Goals (aka – Put my weakness out there.) I hope this helps.
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I have skipped three surgeries due to fear of anesthesia or lost of time and control. I knew before I had my children that I only wanted two of my own, and would adopt or foster many more. I have...
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I can not “go” places like most people, like the “Jones,” I took the kids to SixFlags and had to leave two different ride lines because of “people watching, judging, going to get me, and...
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I know I got this big to get out of the military. I know I stayed this size to keep from being raped again (who wants a “fat-a**” right)(It was my fault I was raped – I thought). Zero...
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This is my first shot at a goal. I woke up and saw my tattoo. I know I went to get it and it took 3 hours to get. I know I felt better last night, but the guilt is already back. I do not get relief...
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Rape area update – called a new counselor, and got my mom to order the “DYM” book for me. Depression area – over all up/down/up day feeling good makes me sadder. Self-Injury area – FAIL...
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I updated all my Group Profiles today, I would like to think this is a way of putting my recovery in some sort of perspective. I do not know which is the biggest problem, probably my rape and guilt,...
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I know it says Christmess I saw that in another thread and loved it, but it is over ... till next year.
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I HATE THE HOLIDAYS !!! Let’s see why…They start in September/October now…Everyone hates being around each other (AKA forced recreation)…No matter what I get the kids it’s wrong or they...
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I wrote this as a response to a thread but is it so moving for me I want to keep it. I am me because of years of denial. My subconscious was still moving on an unhealthy unguided path to heal it’s...
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I need to keep writing here, I stopped and seem to be slipping backwards. In the time of silence I have found a new emotion in which I can not understand – guilt. I thought I could, but I can’t....
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I did it!!! Or rather did not do it!!! That was the first Thanksgiving Eve in nine years I did not hurt my self!!! This is the worst holiday for me, my Mom’s birthday was the 28th aka Thanksgiving,...
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