First Goal

This is my first shot at a goal. I woke up and saw my tattoo. I know I went to get it and it took 3 hours to get. I know I felt better last night, but the guilt is already back. I do not get relief from the tattoos any more, I still feel OK right now, but I know the guilt will kick in. I do not want to pick it this time. If I do it will not be fixable. I redid my left fore arm, the whole forearm. The last time I had it done there was in April 08. I picked at it till it was full of scares. I do not want to pick it this time. I want it to be beautiful. The last tattoo I got was Nov 08, they are getting closer together, and that scares me.