I wrote this as a response to a thread but is it so moving for me I want to keep it. I am me because of years of denial. My subconscious was still moving on an unhealthy unguided path to heal it’s self. I am now in the pilot seat of a vessel atop a violent sea of emotion with no lifeboats, vests, or emergency equipment. I do not know which way the wind is blowing or the current is flowing but I am in the pilot seat now.