how am i even supposed to go about recovering from my situation. feel so lost and alone. i feel so dead and cold inside. the only thing that keeps me going is drinking. and especially now since purple jesus is my new best friend. when i drink,i feel human. not like a monster. ive been that way for a while now but ever since she broke up with me and my mom threw me out i just dont know what to do. so i do what ive allways done. theres no point to being alive if you cant be happy. why cant i ever find true happiness? why is it that women allways hurt me? why is it that they get you to fall in love with them just for them to break your heart? i need a few drinks a gun with one bullet and music.