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Hearing others' stories was good. I'm always interested in what others are going thru. But. I didn't really gain anything from it. Just that lots of people are going thru lots a different bad things....

I'm finally doing it ... I think. Going to an attorney. I am so scared. It's been a crazy month or two. He ran out of money at work. We haven't been able to collect a paycheck and truly pay our bills...

I don't like this life anymore. I'm tired of talking about him touching my "twat". It makes me uncomfortable. It's weird. Yucky weird. A bunch of Bluh Bluh Bluh. Why do the kids get what they want...

It's been a horrible messed up. Good for nothing week. Actually that was last week. It just all cumulated tonight. Last week was my bday. And the entire week was a nightmare. I don't even know where...

It's just the same old thing. I want out. I don't know I can't do it. Why I'm so weak about it. I try to play the game but I'm not really good at it. I can't beat him at his game. He makes the rules....

Things are bad again. Crazy. Insane. Bizarre bad. Money money moneyIt's what he wants to use to control me and the kids. He's mad cause I earn my own money. Just a little bit. And it doesn't...

It never ends. It never gets better. It never changes. I'm struggling to keep the balancing act going. I'm sinking with the ship. I am married to a narcissist. There's not doubt in my mind. (Right...

I feel like a failure. As a parent. As a human. I don't know how to be better. I'm just struggling today. I'll feel alone. I just want to run away and quit it all.

I just want to be normal. I know there is no such thing but there has to be something beyond the religious pyscho babble I live in. The "God has doomed us because we are bad mentality" wears me down....

He dumped out the food I have the cat and woke up my daughter to come feed the cat.

I know I need to start documenting his episodes. I don't know where to really begin so I just start with the most recent:May3 2015,He's made accessing this site tricky. He's using our router to track...

So taxes are due. We owe a lot. Apparently it's my fault. I spend too much. Except. We live off less than half his income. He's self employed. He can't really explain where the other half went... A...

I was thinking about the index card exercise. I don't know if I can actually stand to physically write that all down. But maybe I could brainstorm here some...I was trying to think back to when...

He now wants to charge me $10 everytime my account drops below $5,000. I'm not sure how I would ever keep a balance over 5,000 considering he only gives me a little over 3,000 a month for food,...

I love it when you're mean to the kids because you're unhappy w me and my opinions.... Just proves what an arrogant narc you truly are!