nightcrow

Difficult yesterday but made it through.  Time at the duck blind, eyes closed listening to all the birds in the slough.  Flight of ducks and geese overhead.  Was hard to come back.

It's day 23.  My favorite quote of the day."Your bottom is wherever you happen to find yourself when you decide to stop digging.  For a long time, I considered it a measure of how far I had fallen,...

All right starting again.  Sober 2 days.  Today is day 3.  I wrote myself out a list of reasons I don't want to drink and I put it in my wallet.  I'm hoping before I go and buy alcohol that I'll...

It's day 2.  Yesterday morning was difficult, but after eating lunch I felt better.  Lots of busyness getting ready for Christmas.  I'm enjoying the tree in the evening and early morning, the...

Here I go.  Day 1.  I feel like last week I turned down a road that I don't want to go down again.  Since mid-September I've been trying to not drink with little success but at least I was trying...

Today is day 3.  My first appointment is in just a little bit.  This fresh look from the outside will be helpful and maybe I can add to my skill bag.  I want to make sure that I head straight home...

I am the mountain.  I feel solid.  It's day two.  Since the 24th, I've drank not every day, a day here and a day there and two days here or there without any real desire to recommit. Last Tuesday,...

It's about 230 am.  It's day 1 again, but in a different head space than the former day 1.  I need to be at work in 5 hours.  This is deja vu.  So easy, like a fish to water.  I cannot believe...

Today is day 114.  Over the weekend had my friend and her mother came over with the new baby.  The weather was beautiful.  We sat out in the yard and had a real nice visit.  Next Saturday night,...

Today is day 111.  I stayed up later than usual reading.  It was nice, but I'm paying for it this morning.  I'm really liking the start of fall with the cold nights and warms days.  I leave the...

Today is day 108.  I attended blue belt class last night.  I felt really good afterward, my body loose and stretched out.  I have my testing form memorized and can now refine it and get my stances...

Today is day 107.  I took a step back yesterday to give myself some space, some time.  It seemed to help. I'll see how today goes.  I can do this.  Slow and easy.  Step by step.  Day by day....

Today is day 106.  Making progress toward my goals.  Yesterday afternoon I had a hard time.  It was not that I was going to drink.  I went to town a couple times and at any time, I could have...

Today is day 105. I am committed to making a life change.  I do not drink.  I see the benefit from the new choices I'm making.  I am the tree, not the leaves. I am the mountain.  It is day 105...

Today is day 104.  I met my goal of breathe new life into my home by taking some clothes to Goodwill and by picking up caulk and a new faucet for the tub.  Step by step....one thing at a time....