Day 1, early morning

It's about 230 am.  It's day 1 again, but in a different head space than the former day 1.  I need to be at work in 5 hours.  This is deja vu.  So easy, like a fish to water.  I cannot believe how easy it was.  Walking into the liquor store, I told myself I had choices right to the end and ignored it.  I didn't care.  
This is not the life I want.  This is not the me I want to nurture.  I get off fairly early today and I will get myself back on track.