Beginning again

Here I go.  Day 1.  I feel like last week I turned down a road that I don't want to go down again.  Since mid-September I've been trying to not drink with little success but at least I was trying and I wasn't drinking every day.  Last week I felt like I stopped trying. I drank all week and I was ok with that.  I don't like that I am accepting of it.  I go three days without drinking on a regular basis.  I haven't been able to break into that 4th day.  
I read a quote somewhere recently....Live your life as an experiment.  It's time to experiment.
I am committed to making a life change.  I am the tree, not the leaves.  I am the mountain.  It is day 1 and I am solid.