Beginning again 2
All right starting again. Sober 2 days. Today is day 3. I wrote myself out a list of reasons I don't want to drink and I put it in my wallet. I'm hoping before I go and buy alcohol that I'll read it and it'll make me think. Mapped out last night the things I can do to be proactive during the day that may stop me in the evening.
I'm still in a different place than when I quit before. I'm healthier, so this time I can combine exercise right away. I'm mentally and emotionally in a better place, so my thinking is clearer. I can make better decisions than I could before.
I can be proactive. Maybe that's the piece I was missing before. Before I felt like I was fighting myself and my drinking thoughts, holding tight against myself and my thoughts....more reactive than proactive. I can be proactive. I can use mindfulness. I can use exercise. I can play piano. I can play violin. I can journal. I can label my thoughts and I can acknowledge my anger. I can read my list of reasons I don't want to drink before I go to the liquor store, and ask myself what it is I truly want to do, not just go because I feel I want to go.
I am committed to making a life change. I do not drink. I am the tree, not the leaves. I am the mountain. It is a new day 3 and I am solid.
I'm still in a different place than when I quit before. I'm healthier, so this time I can combine exercise right away. I'm mentally and emotionally in a better place, so my thinking is clearer. I can make better decisions than I could before.
I can be proactive. Maybe that's the piece I was missing before. Before I felt like I was fighting myself and my drinking thoughts, holding tight against myself and my thoughts....more reactive than proactive. I can be proactive. I can use mindfulness. I can use exercise. I can play piano. I can play violin. I can journal. I can label my thoughts and I can acknowledge my anger. I can read my list of reasons I don't want to drink before I go to the liquor store, and ask myself what it is I truly want to do, not just go because I feel I want to go.
I am committed to making a life change. I do not drink. I am the tree, not the leaves. I am the mountain. It is a new day 3 and I am solid.
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