Day 108, morning
Today is day 108. I attended blue belt class last night. I felt really good afterward, my body loose and stretched out. I have my testing form memorized and can now refine it and get my stances right. I don't think there will be any way to do that just at class. There will have to be outside time. It doesn't have to be much.
It still feels like something emotional is going on with me, and because I don't know exactly what's causing it or what it is, I'm not sure what to do about it, but attempt to ride it out. Just breathe. Keep yourself moving forward even if it's little bitty steps. Going to class last night was forward movement.
I know that I'm feeling frustrated with how I feel right now. When it comes to home doing even something small before or after work seems exhausting or overwhelming....just like it's too much or I don't feel like there is time enough. And I do think that's it now that I write it...at home, I feel quickly overwhelmed by even the smallest task. Interesting...it's nice to have an idea of it. It's helpful.
Today is day 108. I am committed to making a life change. I am in a position right now that is curious and maybe just a part of this process of change. I will breathe and be patient with myself. This is what it is...go gently. I do not drink. I am the tree, not the leaves. I am the mountain. It is day 108 and I am solid. Remember that, day 108. Day 108. I have not drank in 108 days. That is an achievement. I will mark it.
It still feels like something emotional is going on with me, and because I don't know exactly what's causing it or what it is, I'm not sure what to do about it, but attempt to ride it out. Just breathe. Keep yourself moving forward even if it's little bitty steps. Going to class last night was forward movement.
I know that I'm feeling frustrated with how I feel right now. When it comes to home doing even something small before or after work seems exhausting or overwhelming....just like it's too much or I don't feel like there is time enough. And I do think that's it now that I write it...at home, I feel quickly overwhelmed by even the smallest task. Interesting...it's nice to have an idea of it. It's helpful.
Today is day 108. I am committed to making a life change. I am in a position right now that is curious and maybe just a part of this process of change. I will breathe and be patient with myself. This is what it is...go gently. I do not drink. I am the tree, not the leaves. I am the mountain. It is day 108 and I am solid. Remember that, day 108. Day 108. I have not drank in 108 days. That is an achievement. I will mark it.
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