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- Every single night the pain comes back, stabbing. I walk around the house in agony, screaming and breathing sooooo fast. I cannot remember what sleep WAS. I actually fear it now. I have a doctors appt in a few days but between them I do not know...
- This is not an easy one to do, but I highly recommend it. On December 11th I found a lost dog on my street. It was small, well groomed and after a frantic chase, tagged it down and it is now safe and sound in our home. And I did this 1 day before...
- In this economic environment, being a small business startup is impossible. I am terminating my trade in 2010 and just doing independent contract work on an irregular basis, and that is not enough income to survive - do not know what to do.
- I have just returned from a funeral in Monroe, NY wherein a dear friend of our family committed suicide. About 5 days ago she vanished from her home at 5 in the morning, all sleeping. For 48 hours her husband lived on beer, coffee and doughnuts as...
- Ages ago my first love was with a woman I have always considered the most beautiful I ever knew and to this day I maintain that opinion. As all first crush events go, it spiraled into disaster with regrets and after a brief reconnect a few years...
- Every so often, when I am sitting in a quiet room or place, I do lament the eternal ringing in my ears that voids whatever I could remember as silence. My friends do not know how lucky they really are to enjoy that.In one ear - high decibel ringIn...
- I am looking at 30000 wedding and my wife is dumping it all on me. i have nothing, and friends ignore me, and worthless. no money and wish I would just die. just go, vanish. be not here in the mornign and too much more of this and i will do it...
- It is 12:07 am and I am wide awake due to financial stress. I am going insane and major loss of income for the year. Worse than ever before and I am beginning to have suicide thoughts again. I am tired of living and do not wish any more of this. ...
- As my profile, I suffered sudden hearing loss in college, about 1976 or so. Viral infection ate away nerves in the right ear, and I can hear only two ranges, extremely high and low. Nothing to be done over these many years. Tonight I was reading...
- I have been on this board for over 2 years and my journal entries show a history of profound depression. I have tried to make a go of it as an independent consultant and have never seen such horrible duplicity in people as I have this past month. ...
- I just spent 10 minutes in the shower screaming and asking God or whatever to kill me. He was not kind to me. I have therefore started cutting and will continue that. I have severe mental issues and depression for most of my life. I am in fact...
- My new doctor put me on ADHD medication, Ritalin and three pills a day. Ok, tried that and WOW severe stomach upset all night long. I wisely am taking one pill a day to work myself into this thing. Also a bit of a dizzy spell. Any experience is...
- For a few moments. I am 53 years old, and when I was a kid, spent mornings watching some ancient old black and white cartoons, and remembered the music and some images ... to this DAY I thought I would never find them EVER.Well, astonishment - they...
- Last night my wife threatened separation and divorce, I have a home based computer support business that is not making enough money, and I do not have health care. Stress is through the roof. Read my journals. We fight and she has had it.
- Here is a tale to be told. Sit back folks, this was magic. Ages ago, when I was a very young lad and very very foolish, I found a first love and like all first things in life (a) she was extremely beautiful and (b) I magnificently screwed it up...