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- My parents created wills for their estate that cut very badly. 90% in effect to my sister in Colorado and the rest to her son, my daughter and me. Net result is that I have lost my sister and do not deal with her at all. Extreme hatred of my...
- I hae $70 to my name and made a bad choice in chosing an independent consulting partner. This is a horrible day, and while I am not suicidal, very close to it. Everything is going wrong and I may get a job in a deli just to make some money, but...
- Than ever before. My journal entries are dreadful and I feel i have no life in me at all, for the past six months I have been pounding my chest to induce a heart attack and have come close. Death would be preferable right now. I have a spouse who...
- For the past six months due to stress I have directed anger towards me and pounding my chest to bring on a heart attack. I may be succeeding as I am finding it harder to breath under stress and so someday will definately just die and be done with...
- Terrible day, I woke up to find $13.49 in my checking account, had a fight with Chase to restore a $105 overcharge fee and went to a job interview that I waited 40 minutes for, nothing, nobody came out so I left that and drove down to a company to -...
- Creditors are after me and I have about $1200 left over before I run out of money. Unemployed right now and stressed to the max. I have no health insurance and my wife is in Italy enjoying Venice today while I am considering the rest of my life. ...
- This is a trick I use. If you can find a good quiet path in woods - I used to live near the appalachean trail - you can walk for a long time and talk to God in whatever way you want to, good or bad and nobody can hear you and think you nuts. ...
- Just posted a note in the depression group about a screaming attack - loud vocal screams - followed by an intense anger attack caused by a credit collection agency coming after me. Smashed a ship model to pieces and threw a small model bus twice,...
- Just took a shower and that is when the screaming fit hit. Frightened the hell out of me, but they were long and sounded like depths of hell to my ear. I remember going through them during a divorce ages back, but these were FAR different and now...
- Rubbing salt into an open wound. I am without a job right now, money is tight and my spouse went into the city with a friend to see a broadway show. She bought the tickets ages ago, did not think the show was to my taste anyway --- she is having a...
- I am in the dumps right now for other reasons - job hunting and a discovery of high level processing with slight aspergers, a definate shock to the soul ... and today I was rumaging thorugh closets to find some computer parts....Be very careful when...
- Calls from creditors are increasing and my creditis shot to pieces, never again will it be good and I am now going to enter the world of killing myself by some means within a month or so if something does not surface soon.
- Mornings are the worst. Whenever I come to and realize that life was not quietly taken from me during the night and I have to face another day of financial worries and job hunting, well that is the worst part of everything. I am running a thin...
- May be declaring that in the near future and if it impacts my spouse, will ask her to divorce me immediately. Not a good evening at all, back to not wanting to wake up anymore. Suicidal thoughts are returning.
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