TryingToForget

i know its been awhile since i wrote an entry, and im sorry i havent been on. im going to try and get on more now. i just moved last week to somersworth (about 30 mins from my old place) and i start...

on sat im goin to florida to see my pepe and aunt joan. in my heart i know this is the last time i will ever see eather of them... my pepe is 77 years old, he has a heart condition and isnt in the...

in regards to my last post i cant talk to my counciler I DONT TRUST HER i cant talk about it i only feel safe here please understand that i dont like to talk about that stuff to people i dont know!...

why is there such a big deal about it? it is ones personal choice, mabie death IS better. for some, some its not its just a desprite attempt to over come a fixable sistuation, but sometimes there may...

hey my mom said if i keep my room clean untill she gets her tax return i can get my tongue peirced!! omg im so exited eeek lol. she gunna go get a tattoo on the same day, it kind of a family event...

im so confused about how i feel right now, i dont feel bad but i dont feel good and jess keeps asking how i feel and what can i say? what do you tell some one when you truthfuly dont know? i cutt...

my teeth hurt so bad, went to the dentist for like the first time in 3 years....i have 8 cavitys and need to go back at least 4 times...ive never had novacain before and im scared lol.

my mom broke up with her boyfreind again, and he has two kids i ment to put this in a while ago but forgot well when she was still with him she old me michel and vannessa were haveing a hard time...

i am just so fucking tired of this...i really needed to talk to my couciler on mon but that was the day she was sick...i wanna cutt so bad but im scared i'll get locked up for cutting and stuff and...

there is no point in tears, not that i could cry them anyway...everything in my sight just seems so cold, i dont want it to be, i wanna be happy and just stay that way. but never am....jess the girl...

23 more days!! oh and i got a job in january deliver newspapers. Her names Ryan Alice by the way!

two weeks an i get to find out wha the baby is, i hope its a boy. names have changed a thousand times in my head but now im thinking about Aidenet (Aid-e-net) for a girl and Ronan for a boy, both...

okay so it was pretty shitty when i found out about the baby but hey im exited, i sorted shit out at home im looking for a job, i got this :P im only about as month but omg iv been unbeliveably...

yeah im pregnant, the dads a complete freak, my life is screwed, half my family hates me. lifes just fuckin amazing

i lost all my friends in somersworth today over something stupid, life has been going good till now. i feel like i have no energy to fight off anything anymore, iv been keeping myself going up till...