TryingToForget

my mom broke up with her boyfreind again, and he has two kids i ment to put this in a while ago but forgot well when she was still with him she old me michel and vannessa were haveing a hard time...

i am just so fucking tired of this...i really needed to talk to my couciler on mon but that was the day she was sick...i wanna cutt so bad but im scared i'll get locked up for cutting and stuff and...

there is no point in tears, not that i could cry them anyway...everything in my sight just seems so cold, i dont want it to be, i wanna be happy and just stay that way. but never am....jess the girl...

it was good x mas, got a new phone, some shirts and stuff... mom still found a  way to make me cry. before we opened gifts she was havein jade talk to her dad via internet and web cam and she got...

1. i am fat2. i am ugly3. i am stupid4. i am uselss5. i suck at writeing 6. i love to write7. i love my sister8. i love who i am9. i love to smile10. i love to talk it evens out :P

more more and more snow 20in prob by mornin ive shovled the side walk and naghboring apts (mostly elderly people there so doin sumthin nice) about 4-5 times the past few days and needs to be again...

its been snowing all day again we have like a foot lol i shovled the side walk, geez its powder snow so it was blowin back in my face

no school this time cuz of 3in of snow out side thats still comein down XD yey lmao and im 15 today!!!!!!!!!!!!

the power is still out in most places cuz of the ice stom on thurs, that means no school for me cuz there usein the high school as a shelter for people without power. u know winter no heat...have yet...

there was a big ice strom on thusday night to friday, school was cancled and we lost power at 11 30pm on thurs night and got it back 5 30 this morning. we spent last night at my freind alkas,so we...

i cutt my hair like 5 mins ago, impulse disition but it looks great, i cutt about 2 inches off....its awsome  im gunna post pics up tomorrow :) hahahaha im soooo hyper lalalala lmao!!!!! oh and i...

ok my moms boyfreind steve told my mom he is a part owner of a trucking company, 3 times DIVORCED (which is not a prob cuz so is my mom)  has no kids and owns a trailer well....hes been liveing with...

life is really to short you know? im gunna beat this crap im gunna be a happy old fuckin lady when i die with lots and lots and lots of kids! every one can beat this to, not gunna let my past get me...

im still sick, really bad cough i hate it! ehhhhh at least its friday i can sleep allllll day tomorrow... yey 3 cheers for fridays!

stayed home from school today, definitly sick. head ach, sore throught, cough....eh this sucks and i have to go to school tomorrow idk if my mom will belive im still sick....i have kinda a bad rap...