TryingToForget

i tryed to talk to my freind and she just pushed me away and said if i didn't stop cutting and being suicidl she wasn't gunna be my freind anymore. if i cant even talked to my 'freinds' about this...

if i died who would TRULY care? who would TRULY miss me? the awnser is no one.  im so sick of this, my mom doesn't have to work 2morrow night so i wont be looking afater jade, im just going to...

today i was being stupid and in school i cutt HELP ME on to the top of my left hand. idk how i am supposed to hide it from my mom. but tomorrow im gunna talk to the school social worker and tell...

how many ibuprofen does it take to die? the qeustion keeps poping up in my mind.

ok this morning i was great now feel really bad, mom yelled at and i wanted to cry. i wanna cutt really bad, its like this almost every day. if this keeps up idk what i'll do

according to my mom i dont dont do enough around the house, she says that i dont cook for jade, which i dont cuz i dont know how (but i make her things like mac and cheese and stuff), she says i dont...

i love u Jshorty13!   hehe just had to share, love u so much

i keep thinking that mabie if i hadn't been born my brother wouldn't be so hateful, mabie jade would have a diffrent more careing dad. mabie my mom wouldn't be that way she is. idk....i've been get...

i feel so bad again, dont ask why its just stupid. but it hurts :( in other news i almost broke down in school today, but stoped myself. i had another fight with my mom, over jade not being hungry...

JustKillMe killed her self last night, its so sad she was my freind :( i hope she finaly found peace RIP JustKillMe

ok slept wrong on my neck and now i cant turn it, thats on top of my injured ankel. AND i woke up at 6:50 am today and my bus usualy leaves at 6:55 am. i had to trow my shoes on, grab my bag and run...

i was walking down an ally today with my freind and i triped on one of the steps and sprained my ankel, now it hurts :( oh well other than that in ok today i geuss

more cutting again today im so frustrated with myself. grr y cant i stop this? this morning i was laying in bed and remebered exactly how i felt in ireland. completely hopeless and worthless. i just...

im starting 2 think it was a mistake 2 tell guidence about my depression. im so scared about if i'll have 2 tell them about what happened b4. i dont know if i can do it. mabie im just being stupid...